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So it's official.
I can't fake being happy here much longer.
Yes, Im looking forward to some of my classes.
Yes, I'm looking forward to my officer positions in my clubs.
Yes, Beth is the bestest (sorry had to add that one in there)
but im not happy here at all.
theres just so much i wanna go into, but no matter what the issue, its not worth my effort.
ive realized PLENTY of things these past couple weeks, and they help justify my decisions.
I only need certain people in my life. I'm happy with the few people that I love to death and im looking forward to seeing my lovies from home.
Robby has been the most incredible thing ever (who gives a shit about his friends, if they wanna ruin the friendship w/ him, thats fine, but in the end, no matter what, i'll be there for him through everything). He's my absolute favoritest person to talk to and spend time with. I've never been happier, and I'm sure he hasn't been happier either. It just sucks that people actually wanna ruin it. But in the end, I know I'll choose him because he just means that much more than 'friends'.
I've changed, umm, NOT ACTUALLY.
Why should I stay if I dont see anyone anymore? Why should I feel guilty for leaving when leaving is what makes me happy?
I just dont know.
But I have made my decision.
After my college graduation, I plan on taking the LSAT's, just to prepare myself.
I want to do my Graduate studies in Political Science. A Political Science Major with a Masters in Education. A professor, teacher, whatever happens. That way I can fund my way through law school and not have to rely on my wonderful husband to fund my future.
I told beth that i wish i could just drop out of college and have kids and get married now.
less worries, b/c you deal with little kids and they aren't as stupid as some people i know. they listen. and dont think entirely of themselves.
thats enough from me.
time to read.
long day tomorrow.
after may 2, my life takes a break before finals. YES