Lady in waiting una princessa syndrome
When you think of the person you want to be with what qualities come to mind? I am having a hard time coming to terms with my answers to this question. In my past I have returned engagement rings because I was honest enough to see beyond the shiny rock on my finger, and think about what has happened while with this person. Mentally I have a list of things and while some can compromise on some issues I cant. I find it hard to not because I am spoiled, but because I have been so unspoiled and have had to fight for everything I have. One side of me says do you love yourself, and if so why should you have to compromise. No relationship is rose petals and candy but if it’s a struggle before the marriage whats it going to be after. In my life I have already fought against being that statistic of a young unwed, uneducated, Hispanic female. I don’t have any kids (besides the dog) I went to school got my degree and have tried to stay away from men who would steer me in the wrong direction.
Joking (well not really) in the past I have asked friends if we were not married by a certain age if they would marry me. They are all married now and while walking the dog last night, I don’t think it was panic that was setting in as I said I am ok if I am 45 and still alone. Not that I am 45 yet but still I refuse to compromise on what I want in a husband. Maybe it’s the mumbo jumbo about the universe coming to bite me in the ass. Yes I recognize flaws that I have that I am bitchy, picky and am at the point in my life where I give up easy. I also know that I have good qualities as well so its not all bad with me. Then maybe there is not much out there to choose from, I understand being with someone because you have been with them for a long time and it makes sense to just stay where you are. Then if your being short changed its up to you to stop the madness and point it out. As Mary J. would say I can do bad all by myself and that way I only have myself to blame.
nuwell: another question. would you rather be with a guy who is super nice would do anything for you no matter what but with less $$$ or a guy who is well off but ignores you at times
samanthalous: well I find that all guys no matter what the type ignore you at times
nuwell: yeah
samanthalous: I dont know lately I think I have really been thinking about what I want in a person I am going to marry
nuwell: what is that
samanthalous: I want someone who is funny and finds me funny, I want someone who talks because most of the time I dont and I would hate it if I had to bring up conversation just to bring up conversation. Someone who had interest in me sexually and would act on it. Someone who was more like a best friend. I wouldn't mind having someone who made bank so I wouldn't have to worry so much. Someone who was smart and would encourage me. Someone taller than me. Someone who went all out for me without me having to bring it their attention. Someone who was romantic and someone who appreciated me.
samanthalous: oh yeah and someone who could deal with a bitchy picky person because thats what I am
nuwell: nice haha
nuwell: good luck
I watched the bridge last night, how I was so in love with kidd capri when I was young.