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i sent noemi off on her train today, the last day our eurail passes were valid. walking back to the apartment i had this feeling of weightedness like just content n "everything happens for a reason", as noemi always says and i only somewhat agree with... some decisions are just stupider than others. i knew one of us would cry when the time came and im surprised it wasn't me, honestly. i feel like she's family now, after such intensity for five weeks, relying on one another (and no cell phones so we were forced to be in tune and coordinated). if i ever lost her in a crowd for a minute i would get very nervous because there would be no way to meet up again really. the worst was that time that i got locked out of a moving train that she was on (with all of our bags) in prague and against all odds i pried open the closed doors as the train was pulling out of the station and lifted my body through the opening. the doors closed on my leg really hard and left an ugly ugly bruise, but it shows what we can do for one another. i dont know if i have words for this trip yet, but right now i feel very spoiled staying in my dads apartment here, being taken out to dinner, free laundry, free internet, etc. tomorrow im completely alone because my dad goes to work at 7am. i think i'll go turn brown on the beach for a few hours and then maybe eat an ice cream and walk along the water.