Disappointment
Disappointment is a bad feeling...not something that you want to get that often...so far this whole week has been full of disappointments...first i find out that im not working this week...Jessie (who is now my gf) is working Monday thru Wednesday...I then find out that she isnt gonna be here Thursday or Friday because she is going to look at colleges...she wont be back till Sunday night...not happy about that...on monday we talk on the fone, but guess what we only talk for about an hour because shes tired and wants to watch her shows...Tuesday she wants to go c a movie...i dont have a ride so she goes with her friend Courtney...Today i was supposed to go to her house after she got off of work, but nope there is an emergency camp meeting...so now im stuck at home all week depressed...i dont blame her, but i feel like everything i have that disappoints me involves her in some way...*sigh*...i cant take being disappointed, so now i will always be looking at the bad things for the future...i no thats bad, but at least i wont get hurt as much...my dad and i havent been getting along for the past couple of days...we fight almost every time we talk...as of right this instant im not happy at all...i feel...lonely...like empty...my friends havent called me...Jessie's leaving...im drifting away from my father...my moms leaving for the weekend too...maybe ill call emily tomorrow and walk to her house...but knowing my luck this week she'll be somewhere or i wont be able to go over...