as the safeway turns
i have reached the end of my rope. there is no more rope. i am ropeless. that is, lacking in rope or any other kind of cordage.
i am putting in my two weeks notice at safeway tomorrow. i am applying at wendel family dental center, and hopefull at HP. danielle said she would write me a letter of reccomendation, which would seriously rock. i really hope i'm not unemployed for very long. i can't afford to not have a job. i was planning on applying and waiting until i get a new job to quit safeway, but my parents told me not to wait. they said if need be they can pay for clark next quarter until i find a job. i have wanted to quit for a long time, but i haven't really had a good reason until now.
i went to get my paycheck today, and discovered that people have been telling vicky that i've been talking crap about her. i've made several vague comments about there being tension because of problems she's been having with kyle, and about kyle maybe not getting along with tyler as much as he gets along with his own daughter. it turned into me saying that i wish kyle and beth would get back together, i think vicky and kyle hate each others' kids, and all sorts of general slander toward vicky. now, my brother believes the assholes i work with before he will believe what i say, and he comes over regularly to badmouth his girlfriend on top of all of this. he seems to be mad at me, and if that is what is going to happen when i work with those people, i don't want to take it anymore. i will not. i think if anyone asks, i'm going to tell them that the reason i'm leaving is stress from my grandmother's failing health. because while it is not THE deciding factor, it is still A factor.
i work tomorrow, and am not scheduled to work again until 2 weeks from sunday. hopefully i will not have to work at safeway again after tomorrow. it makes me feel nervous and sick to my stomach to think of working with anybody there even once more.
i know i will have trouble sleeping tonight wondering if it'll take longer than two weeks for me to resign. i suppose i will just have to tell lisa that if i am scheduled to work in the next two weeks i won't be able to make it in. i feel like crying just thinking about what kind of shit my brother may pull trying to make me feel guilty about this whole thing, when it honestly isn't my fault.
i just want to wake up and have it all be a bad dream. i never would have thought safeway could have such a bad effect on my family. it doesn't seem possible.
i don't know what else to say. i'm leaving for arizona on saturday, so i won't be doing anything but packing when i get home from work at slaveway tomorrow. egh, i feel sick.
ohm shanti.
i am putting in my two weeks notice at safeway tomorrow. i am applying at wendel family dental center, and hopefull at HP. danielle said she would write me a letter of reccomendation, which would seriously rock. i really hope i'm not unemployed for very long. i can't afford to not have a job. i was planning on applying and waiting until i get a new job to quit safeway, but my parents told me not to wait. they said if need be they can pay for clark next quarter until i find a job. i have wanted to quit for a long time, but i haven't really had a good reason until now.
i went to get my paycheck today, and discovered that people have been telling vicky that i've been talking crap about her. i've made several vague comments about there being tension because of problems she's been having with kyle, and about kyle maybe not getting along with tyler as much as he gets along with his own daughter. it turned into me saying that i wish kyle and beth would get back together, i think vicky and kyle hate each others' kids, and all sorts of general slander toward vicky. now, my brother believes the assholes i work with before he will believe what i say, and he comes over regularly to badmouth his girlfriend on top of all of this. he seems to be mad at me, and if that is what is going to happen when i work with those people, i don't want to take it anymore. i will not. i think if anyone asks, i'm going to tell them that the reason i'm leaving is stress from my grandmother's failing health. because while it is not THE deciding factor, it is still A factor.
i work tomorrow, and am not scheduled to work again until 2 weeks from sunday. hopefully i will not have to work at safeway again after tomorrow. it makes me feel nervous and sick to my stomach to think of working with anybody there even once more.
i know i will have trouble sleeping tonight wondering if it'll take longer than two weeks for me to resign. i suppose i will just have to tell lisa that if i am scheduled to work in the next two weeks i won't be able to make it in. i feel like crying just thinking about what kind of shit my brother may pull trying to make me feel guilty about this whole thing, when it honestly isn't my fault.
i just want to wake up and have it all be a bad dream. i never would have thought safeway could have such a bad effect on my family. it doesn't seem possible.
i don't know what else to say. i'm leaving for arizona on saturday, so i won't be doing anything but packing when i get home from work at slaveway tomorrow. egh, i feel sick.
ohm shanti.