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Sometimes a person can only handle so much rejection at one time. It's often hard to find the words to express the feeling one gets when their ex ( read: who they never completely got over) states simply how neurotic they were in the past, and how his new girl is perfect. It doesn't help that your own father doesn't want you, and on top of it all someone you've been crazy about for several months doesn't seem to notice that you exist. RED FLAG....no one wants or needs you. I get these pity speeches from my mom telling me that someday I'll meet someone who appreciates me for who I am....who will care. I'm not good at having close friends, and I never have been. I hit a point in a friendship where I try and be honest with my feelings, and normally that's when it goes down the shitter. Hopefully this is not the case tonight. i know you think that I must not be serious...but honestly sometimes I just don't feel like living another day of this shit. For the next two years of my life.... I'm sensitive & take criticism to heart.