I'm trying to sort out my animal situation.

Animals take a lot of constant work, unlike the garden which requires bursts of seasonal work. To some extent that constant work is important for me since it gets me up and moving every day. To some extent it's a problem, because it makes vacations etc difficult. To a large extent it can be ameliorated ( Read more... )

Oh no.

I'd just gently turned my focus back on myself.

I'd written about my plans for my home. I'd written about evolutionary breeding, about how the animals fit in here, about fields cropped by time series (winter rye and peas and greens finish; the pigs move into the field and eat what I haven't skimmed off; I plant napa cabbage and daikon on the ( Read more... )

Further to my last post, the friends I do want to keep close are nearly all in some sort of depressive/emotional crisis. Most of them are externalizing it too, which means they're still in the "the world is objectively terrible and so I have to be emotionally destroyed and nothing can be done" which is-- I mean, that's where it's depression and not ( Read more... )

I've been listing my multivariety tests here, so. Haskaps (also called honeyberries or I think they have about a thousand other common names) are a pretty hardy berry in the honeysuckle family that was grown a little in Japan and Russia. A number of years ago the University of Saskatchewan and then a couple places in the states started breeding ( Read more... )

I'm mostly going to talk about pigs ( Read more... )

I notice that when I weed my garden, I only weed out the inedible weeds ( Read more... )

I started running last week; it became apparent that yoga was going to take some working to make happen (I may have to drive to school for one of my classes on yoga days, to make yoga without completely sacrificing the whole evening, just with the placement of schedules and the general awfulness of buses) and my shoulders were sore and I'd just ( Read more... )

I use the word fat in here. It kinda triggers even me. I do this deliberately to try and break down my unpleasant stereotypes. Tread lovingly with yourself here.This is the tail-end of the marathon-three-days I spend at work/school. I should be at school this second, half an hour into class, but I dropped my bike off and they're keeping her for a ( Read more... )

Well, it's morning and I'm still feeling a little broken, if less so. I'm supposed to be working today, but I can swap it with tomorrow if I want to. I may do that and spend today trying to reassemble myself.

I've been meaning to write a riff on a phrase Michael sent me, "work as worship", and perhaps this is the time.

First:

wor·ship (wûrshp ( Read more... )

I'd really like to take the time to write about school so far. I know my impressions of it will change, but tonight I'll have been to each class once (some of the classes I'm only at six times before the midterm rollover) and have some general idea of what the classes are about; thus far I've worked with each teacher I'll work with, since the one ( Read more... )