And a time to every purpose
The seasons are turning. Suddenly all the deciduous are yellow and a little orange-- there are no native purples here, and only the occasional red. We've had regular heavy rains again but often just overnight. Yellow aspen against the blue sky is so lovely. The tires got changed, so now the 4runner sounds like a tank again.
I survived last week. It felt awful, but I did it. I'm feeling more ok right now, out of the guilt spiral enough that I can imagine a future again. I called the work counseling line twice last week for on-demand counseling, one session of which was really good and one of which was ok. I'm supposed to be signed up for a longer term thing - one reason I haven't really wanted to go the work counseling route is that it's supposed to be short-term only, as well as not being able to select for poly-friendly etc - and they were supposed to call me back last week to schedule appointments, but of course they did not. I think out of the ten or so attempts to get counseling I've made in my life, I've actually been called back by 2.
So I need to call them again.
Mom also texted me and asked to come visit, I'm not sure if she just knew through the ether that I felt bad or if she ran out of stuff to do there, but it was a very welcome request. She should be coming up within the next week or so.
The results for the covid test finally came back. I first started trying to get a test on a Friday, got through to the very busy line on Monday, got the test Tuesday, and heard back on Saturday-- a little more than a week cut out at the time when I most needed to be getting hay and straw lined up.
This week I'm in the field making up for not being able to go out for the last two weeks, so I'm super super busy. I guess this weekend or next week I'll be hoping that everyone still has hay and straw left. It's maybe unlikely that they will, but we will see.
Black Chunk (who still needs a better name) finally had her babies. There are 4 little ones out there, one red girl and 3 black and white boys. She's nursing properly and they're lively and dry. The weather is still up around 7C at night. So that's good; I also think there are some folks looking for boars in the area since the other Ossabaw folks cut all theirs, so I'm evaluating them for prospects before I castrate them all.
That's a enough of a data dump for now. I've had a couple real long days and I am going to eat a lot of food and watch youtube videos, primarily also about food.
I hope you're all well.
I survived last week. It felt awful, but I did it. I'm feeling more ok right now, out of the guilt spiral enough that I can imagine a future again. I called the work counseling line twice last week for on-demand counseling, one session of which was really good and one of which was ok. I'm supposed to be signed up for a longer term thing - one reason I haven't really wanted to go the work counseling route is that it's supposed to be short-term only, as well as not being able to select for poly-friendly etc - and they were supposed to call me back last week to schedule appointments, but of course they did not. I think out of the ten or so attempts to get counseling I've made in my life, I've actually been called back by 2.
So I need to call them again.
Mom also texted me and asked to come visit, I'm not sure if she just knew through the ether that I felt bad or if she ran out of stuff to do there, but it was a very welcome request. She should be coming up within the next week or so.
The results for the covid test finally came back. I first started trying to get a test on a Friday, got through to the very busy line on Monday, got the test Tuesday, and heard back on Saturday-- a little more than a week cut out at the time when I most needed to be getting hay and straw lined up.
This week I'm in the field making up for not being able to go out for the last two weeks, so I'm super super busy. I guess this weekend or next week I'll be hoping that everyone still has hay and straw left. It's maybe unlikely that they will, but we will see.
Black Chunk (who still needs a better name) finally had her babies. There are 4 little ones out there, one red girl and 3 black and white boys. She's nursing properly and they're lively and dry. The weather is still up around 7C at night. So that's good; I also think there are some folks looking for boars in the area since the other Ossabaw folks cut all theirs, so I'm evaluating them for prospects before I castrate them all.
That's a enough of a data dump for now. I've had a couple real long days and I am going to eat a lot of food and watch youtube videos, primarily also about food.
I hope you're all well.