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i started reading A Time Traveler's Wife. its pretty good.
i want to do everything i didn't do before.
i am so disappointed in people. i wonder if anyone will ever live up to my expectations...
i feel so odd. it's not at all like last time. i don't mope and cry or get drunk. i just feel odd. so odd.
somehow i think i would feel this with or without him though, and i'd say i need someone to take the feeling away but i don't think i want someone right now. i need a bit of time.
but i will go out with people and hang out. meet new people. new guys. even hang out with some old guys. we'll see.
its so funny how life works.
i got my hand read. it was weird. the lady sounded pretty accurate though. very it seemed. i guess we'll see in two years lol.
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Love After Love by Derek Alcott
The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,
and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you
all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,
the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.
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that's exactly what it is.
i want to do everything i didn't do before.
i am so disappointed in people. i wonder if anyone will ever live up to my expectations...
i feel so odd. it's not at all like last time. i don't mope and cry or get drunk. i just feel odd. so odd.
somehow i think i would feel this with or without him though, and i'd say i need someone to take the feeling away but i don't think i want someone right now. i need a bit of time.
but i will go out with people and hang out. meet new people. new guys. even hang out with some old guys. we'll see.
its so funny how life works.
i got my hand read. it was weird. the lady sounded pretty accurate though. very it seemed. i guess we'll see in two years lol.
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Love After Love by Derek Alcott
The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,
and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you
all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,
the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.
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that's exactly what it is.