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i guess i should be happy, but i'm not. it hurts me when you say those things.
whatever, there is not really much else i can say right now.
i don't see that going anywhere. oh well.
at least meigan has a way of distracting me. lol.
i just want this semester to end.
i want to start working again to get some distraction.
i want to start summer term.
i want to start driving.
i want to just concentrate on myself.
i'm so sick of doing things to please people.
anyway, i don't know.
i'm in a weird mood.
i wasn't happy before, and i'm not happy now. i wonder what the fuck will ever make me happy.
i don't know.
i guess only time will tell.
i want to visit yesi. i feel like a bad friend. this is really what has ultimately forced me to prioritize driving and stop taking advantage of people. because i don't drive i couldn't be there for her baby's birth. i missed it. and i'm mad at myself for not being there. whatever. that will change.
i am so blah right now.
whatever, there is not really much else i can say right now.
i don't see that going anywhere. oh well.
at least meigan has a way of distracting me. lol.
i just want this semester to end.
i want to start working again to get some distraction.
i want to start summer term.
i want to start driving.
i want to just concentrate on myself.
i'm so sick of doing things to please people.
anyway, i don't know.
i'm in a weird mood.
i wasn't happy before, and i'm not happy now. i wonder what the fuck will ever make me happy.
i don't know.
i guess only time will tell.
i want to visit yesi. i feel like a bad friend. this is really what has ultimately forced me to prioritize driving and stop taking advantage of people. because i don't drive i couldn't be there for her baby's birth. i missed it. and i'm mad at myself for not being there. whatever. that will change.
i am so blah right now.