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i've seen this in many journals, and i directly stole it from cpm:
01. I hurt: too many people
02. I love: friends, nature, music
03. I hate: meanness
04. I cry: but most people don't see me
05. I fear: never being good enough
06. I hope: to create something inspiring
07. I'm saddened: by being ignored
08. I feel alone: when i'm with many people, but none of them understand
09. I kill: people's hopes
10. I talk: because i can
11. I listen: but sometimes it's not enough
12. I break: stereotypes (i try)
13. I see: destruction
14. I smell: my fruity lip gloss
15. I taste: yummy...mmm lip gloss. heh
16. I work: nowhere. because i'm lazy, and they don't want me anyway
17. I remember: a mosaic of details and scenes
18. I hold: myself to high standards
19. I hide: because you hid first
20. I pray: for a happy world
21. I walk: around in circles
22. I drive: with someone 21yrs or older in the front passenger seat
23. I read: instruction manuals
24. I burn: everything i can. mmm...fire
25. I breathe: and the air is heavy
26. I play: with people's feelings
27. I miss: my innocence
28. I touch: the darkness
29. I learn: whatever i can
30. I feel: anticipation
31. I know: that i should listen to that voice in my head
32. I said: i would prove myself. and someday i will. maybe...
33. I dream: vividly
34. I have: many things. but what good are things, really?
35. I want: to be loved by all
36. I fall: on my face. it's rather amusing
37. I wait: for the future
38. I need: to be noticed
39. I live: for friendship
40. I die: slowly with each moment i live. but don't we all?
i have too much work to do, but not enough motivation.
one of the best moments of a concert is when the hushed crowd freezes in anticipation of the first glorious note. they hear the music inside themselves just before it plays. and then it begins and they become one with beauty.
i got my last acceptance letter a couple days ago. it was from oberlin. i remember when katie and i were obsessed with that school, back in 10th grade. i still think it would be a cool place to get an education, but they only offered me 10k a year merit money and my family has no need. (at least every school i applied to accepted me and offered me scholarship money. that kinda makes me feel warm inside...oh wait no, that's heartburn. heh...) so it looks like i'll be going going to psu. i'm excited about penn state now anyway. they have a bunch of cool stuff!
i had so much fun riding with katie and matt and blasting weezer and shouting into the wind and running around the car at stoplights last night. and who could forget the tree-tying incident? ;-) the smoothie place was fun even though ali didn't accomplish her task -- trying to get me to do your dirty work! hehe. i also had some good conversations with lucy in her car and on the beach. and we all got sandy because matt's blanket just wasn't big enough...or maybe because some people kept hogging the middle.
01. I hurt: too many people
02. I love: friends, nature, music
03. I hate: meanness
04. I cry: but most people don't see me
05. I fear: never being good enough
06. I hope: to create something inspiring
07. I'm saddened: by being ignored
08. I feel alone: when i'm with many people, but none of them understand
09. I kill: people's hopes
10. I talk: because i can
11. I listen: but sometimes it's not enough
12. I break: stereotypes (i try)
13. I see: destruction
14. I smell: my fruity lip gloss
15. I taste: yummy...mmm lip gloss. heh
16. I work: nowhere. because i'm lazy, and they don't want me anyway
17. I remember: a mosaic of details and scenes
18. I hold: myself to high standards
19. I hide: because you hid first
20. I pray: for a happy world
21. I walk: around in circles
22. I drive: with someone 21yrs or older in the front passenger seat
23. I read: instruction manuals
24. I burn: everything i can. mmm...fire
25. I breathe: and the air is heavy
26. I play: with people's feelings
27. I miss: my innocence
28. I touch: the darkness
29. I learn: whatever i can
30. I feel: anticipation
31. I know: that i should listen to that voice in my head
32. I said: i would prove myself. and someday i will. maybe...
33. I dream: vividly
34. I have: many things. but what good are things, really?
35. I want: to be loved by all
36. I fall: on my face. it's rather amusing
37. I wait: for the future
38. I need: to be noticed
39. I live: for friendship
40. I die: slowly with each moment i live. but don't we all?
i have too much work to do, but not enough motivation.
one of the best moments of a concert is when the hushed crowd freezes in anticipation of the first glorious note. they hear the music inside themselves just before it plays. and then it begins and they become one with beauty.
i got my last acceptance letter a couple days ago. it was from oberlin. i remember when katie and i were obsessed with that school, back in 10th grade. i still think it would be a cool place to get an education, but they only offered me 10k a year merit money and my family has no need. (at least every school i applied to accepted me and offered me scholarship money. that kinda makes me feel warm inside...oh wait no, that's heartburn. heh...) so it looks like i'll be going going to psu. i'm excited about penn state now anyway. they have a bunch of cool stuff!
i had so much fun riding with katie and matt and blasting weezer and shouting into the wind and running around the car at stoplights last night. and who could forget the tree-tying incident? ;-) the smoothie place was fun even though ali didn't accomplish her task -- trying to get me to do your dirty work! hehe. i also had some good conversations with lucy in her car and on the beach. and we all got sandy because matt's blanket just wasn't big enough...or maybe because some people kept hogging the middle.