how the hell did I get here?

[greensinger]

It's strange to feel that I'm not generally well-liked or respected, nor generally useful to anyone. And that this is a fairly even-handed and realistic assessment. This is not where I set out to go, and I don't know how to turn back. I'm definitely sad lately, but not out of keeping with day-to-day life.

Every day I feel like I'm not passing the test. But if I'm not passing, and failure is not an option, where does that leave me?