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So, I've decided to give myself a break before I've even done any work really. Yesterday was Halloween (The Greatest Holiday!), but it seems this year I did more work for Halloween than play. Probably because, I didn't allow myself to get shit-faced over the weekend.. haha.. I loved my costume this year too! I was a, umm, I guess it can be explained as a dead pirate? Zombie Pirate perhaps? What's even better is I always do my best to find regular clothes to wear for my costumes rather than spending on costumes that I'll never be able to wear for anything else.... so I already have my Christmas threads! Yay! What does every pirate need?... A pet, a partner in criiimmmeeee! Zeelan was my lil' monkey.... he was the best/cutest monkey ever!!! Too bad he's too big for me to have been able to carry him on my shoulders or something, oh well. We hung out with Brandon last night, so Z still got to monkey around climbing, and being tossed around by his dad.
I got suddenly sick as hell @ work yesterday and didn't get a think accomplished but answer calls and fight to sleep the rest of the time. I usually never ever get headaches if at all and in the past week I've gotten 3. I got 2 minor ones during the week, and yesterday I thought I had a migraine but it could have well been a sinus headache. I had to turn all the lights off and go sit in the kitchen between the fridge and a stack boxes. Even the light coming through the windows was bothering me. I almost didn't even want to do my makeup for Halloween last night!... I did though, but now it looks like the side of my nose is stained with fake blood, but it's not.... my nose was already irritated yesterday from it dripping and me rubbing it like mad with tissue... and since retard me didn't want to miss out of my favorite holiday, I went ahead and did all my makeup, sticking on my huge latex piece on my face with mostly spirit gum and liquid latex. It burned around my nose a lil, but I ignored it... Well, now that's why my nose looks like it's stained, but it's real... it got irritated and is now smeared-blood looking.
(Last Paragraph)... Today is my moms B-day... She would have been 61yrs old!!! What an old lady!!! I bet she's not worrying about her wrinkles and dying her hair now!haha I miss my lil' mama.. haha I can say that because she was way shorter than me! Now, that's short! Her being gone doesn't really hurt so much anymore... in fact, it's kinda' weird thinking about, now that it's been about 6 1/2yrs. I'd barely turned 18 when she passed on... so, now that so much has happened and I've 'grown-up' so much, it's more like "I had a mom?" It would have been cool for Zen to know his nana considering he spends most of the time with his Tata who 'supervises' him but is not much of a story-telling-teaching type of grandparent. His grandpa who is a better teaching-story-telling type of grandparent lives in Phx. but always seems to be a bit more self absorbed in his own life in a way to spend more time with Z much less his own kids. He did watch Z for us for the longest time which was great though... he helped teach him so many things rather than just having him sit in front of the TV all day long (The way I was somewhat raised). I'm still not happy that Zen's grandma chose to move back to Australia rather than continuing to live here where she made a ton more $ and would have an easier time flying back there to visit often than trying to save up on a smaller income for a more expensive trip here. I miss my other mum. Oh well, at least Z will have a chance to fly to a different country and find out who and what he is really a part of! He does have someone else who is kinda referred to as his other grandma though. She's pretty much one of my other moms too. I guess the fact that he hardly sees her would be mostly my fault though. I've always gone through spurts of talking to her all the time to barely talking to her at all. She is one of my closest friend's (ex's) mom... also, my sis' ex-mom-in-law... How's that for confusing?.. haha Ahhhhh-shite!.. Ok.... I must now work my arse off considering I did nothing at all but take a few calls yesterday and sleep at work. I need to get caught up, yay.. bleh