It's all gone grey....
Nacho Libre is pretty darn funny. Not as quotable as Napoleon Dynamite though... oh well. Still funny. I got stung by a wasp at the park tonight.... don't they die after that? I hope so.
Life is so confusing. I wish I could just understand why things happen the way they do. I especially wish I could understand the way guys think.... It's apparently just so opposite how women think.... I'm really upset by some of my so-called friends' recent actions. Makes me question if we are even friends... It just seems like friends don't just randomly dismiss each other... I dunno, it's frustrating. I just wanna scream. Not that that would accomplish anything whatsoever... haha...
Nothing seems clear to me right now. I hate that feeling. I like being in control of things... I guess I don't like taking life as it comes.... I like plans... at least having a rough feel of the future... some would think that takes the fun out of life... but I'm just programmed differently I suppose. Don't get me wrong, I like being spontaneous... I've even been that way this summer... which is odd for me.... but I don't like it all the time.
I keep dreaming at night... and I wake up feeling quite unrested and unsettled... haha, I think about things while I fall asleep... and last night I decided that if I had to lose a sense... I'd rather it be my sense of taste... as much as that would suck... but that way I could eat really healthy and never have to taste the stuff I'm putting in my mouth... and it would help in other areas of life as well... heh heh.... If you had to lose one of your five senses, which would it be?
I took the kitty back for a follow-up and she's doing a lot better... there isn't any blood in her urine any longer... but she still has some crystals... she might have Idiopathic Cystitis... which would stink b/c it comes back... so she'll always have it... the doctor says its stress related... my poor kitty Oh it was awful today. He did the urinalysis differently... he shaved her belly a little and stuck a needle in her bladder to get a urine sample!!!!!! She was shaking so bad!!! She doesn't have to go back for another month though, so that'll be nice... She'll get a break from being poked and prodded at and stuff. In the last two weeks I spent 180 bucks on my cat. grrrr.... I wouldn't mind so much if I had a fucking job.... I'm going to do some calling around tomorrow at places I've applied, so hopefully I'll get something.. that'd be wonderful!!!!!!!
Well I'm gonna go sit.... listen to music... I've got the new Yellowcard cd going now, it's alright... The 30 Seconds to Mars cd is amaaazing.... they are good... Really good.... mmk well sorry about sitting on my soap-box for so long.... I just gotta get some things off my chest.... too bad it rarely makes me feel any better.... ha... weird huh?
Life is so confusing. I wish I could just understand why things happen the way they do. I especially wish I could understand the way guys think.... It's apparently just so opposite how women think.... I'm really upset by some of my so-called friends' recent actions. Makes me question if we are even friends... It just seems like friends don't just randomly dismiss each other... I dunno, it's frustrating. I just wanna scream. Not that that would accomplish anything whatsoever... haha...
Nothing seems clear to me right now. I hate that feeling. I like being in control of things... I guess I don't like taking life as it comes.... I like plans... at least having a rough feel of the future... some would think that takes the fun out of life... but I'm just programmed differently I suppose. Don't get me wrong, I like being spontaneous... I've even been that way this summer... which is odd for me.... but I don't like it all the time.
I keep dreaming at night... and I wake up feeling quite unrested and unsettled... haha, I think about things while I fall asleep... and last night I decided that if I had to lose a sense... I'd rather it be my sense of taste... as much as that would suck... but that way I could eat really healthy and never have to taste the stuff I'm putting in my mouth... and it would help in other areas of life as well... heh heh.... If you had to lose one of your five senses, which would it be?
I took the kitty back for a follow-up and she's doing a lot better... there isn't any blood in her urine any longer... but she still has some crystals... she might have Idiopathic Cystitis... which would stink b/c it comes back... so she'll always have it... the doctor says its stress related... my poor kitty Oh it was awful today. He did the urinalysis differently... he shaved her belly a little and stuck a needle in her bladder to get a urine sample!!!!!! She was shaking so bad!!! She doesn't have to go back for another month though, so that'll be nice... She'll get a break from being poked and prodded at and stuff. In the last two weeks I spent 180 bucks on my cat. grrrr.... I wouldn't mind so much if I had a fucking job.... I'm going to do some calling around tomorrow at places I've applied, so hopefully I'll get something.. that'd be wonderful!!!!!!!
Well I'm gonna go sit.... listen to music... I've got the new Yellowcard cd going now, it's alright... The 30 Seconds to Mars cd is amaaazing.... they are good... Really good.... mmk well sorry about sitting on my soap-box for so long.... I just gotta get some things off my chest.... too bad it rarely makes me feel any better.... ha... weird huh?