HIHI VERY LONG POST
Okay I am really bored. I hate the bidding system sigh. Will never get what I want, since sem 1. Omg, but I really hope this time round I can get this module even though it is not my first three choices! Whenever I refresh the page I wanna scold those people who bid for my course. Argh. Hate you guys! >:(
Okay since last week, I have been going out with all my friends, catching up and having fun! I know I do complain about not having time for myself, sitting at my table and drawing/writing random stuff, but haha, it's all worth it I guess. :) Actually I realised for the whole 2009, I seldom had time for myself, doing things that I really like even though there's nothing much that I really like to do. Whenever I was free, it would most likely be during the weekends, and JH would drop by my house and chill with me. Lol. Or else I would be going out with friends. And first half of the year was spent working, second half studying. Seriously I feel as if I am waiting for something to happen in my life, that's why I am doing all these, like working and studying. But I don't know what is it that I am waiting for.. and before I know it, maybe my life's over already haha.
Sometimes people are really complicated creatures, yes? Sigh, I really hope I am not so sensitive all the time, reading too much into everything but I hate to pretend that nothing's happening and I am happy. Sometimes when I'm not thinking too much, I can really feel pure happiness from every little things around me, especially my aircon and fan and jacket and everything that make me feel comfy. :) I really love them so much I think I will cry if all of them are spoilt. Sigh. Anyways I will stand in front of my aircon and keep taking in the fresh air from my aircon whenever I on it. Damn shiok leh omg hehehe. Am looking forward to midnight now! :):)
But anyways, as I was saying, people people. Sigh. I think I am like more anti-social now, or rather can't be bothered, or maybe I understand everything already. Haha. So like what my family and close friends said, maybe I should just learn to let go of all those silly stuff, and maybe I don't have to follow rules all the time anymore. But just to let you know, I am very upset/hurt because of you haha.
Okay I know I am a lucky girl. I have family and friends around me who care for me. I have JH too but sometimes I feel very tired of everything even though everything is perfect. Have you ever felt that your life is good enough or you are very satisfied with everything so far and you are ready to go? Haha. I feel this way all the time! Dreams and goals are all just superficial, no? Things seldom happen the way you want them to be, it's really boring and demoralising. I know there are people who are in much worse situations than me, but I think everyone will have a fair share of ups and downs in life and it all depends on how you look at them, right? Haha. My life is awesome, but I am very depressed all the time. So yeah. But I hope I won't lose all these stuff.
Anyways tell you a secret, I have been thinking of getting a tattoo with my sister since like ages ago, inspired by my father hahaha. But still don't know where to tattoo! :/ Okay I think this might be a crazy post to whoever who reads it hahaha. But okay, maybe I won't do it. Haha. All the best to everyone around me in 2010! :):)
K bye!
Okay since last week, I have been going out with all my friends, catching up and having fun! I know I do complain about not having time for myself, sitting at my table and drawing/writing random stuff, but haha, it's all worth it I guess. :) Actually I realised for the whole 2009, I seldom had time for myself, doing things that I really like even though there's nothing much that I really like to do. Whenever I was free, it would most likely be during the weekends, and JH would drop by my house and chill with me. Lol. Or else I would be going out with friends. And first half of the year was spent working, second half studying. Seriously I feel as if I am waiting for something to happen in my life, that's why I am doing all these, like working and studying. But I don't know what is it that I am waiting for.. and before I know it, maybe my life's over already haha.
Sometimes people are really complicated creatures, yes? Sigh, I really hope I am not so sensitive all the time, reading too much into everything but I hate to pretend that nothing's happening and I am happy. Sometimes when I'm not thinking too much, I can really feel pure happiness from every little things around me, especially my aircon and fan and jacket and everything that make me feel comfy. :) I really love them so much I think I will cry if all of them are spoilt. Sigh. Anyways I will stand in front of my aircon and keep taking in the fresh air from my aircon whenever I on it. Damn shiok leh omg hehehe. Am looking forward to midnight now! :):)
But anyways, as I was saying, people people. Sigh. I think I am like more anti-social now, or rather can't be bothered, or maybe I understand everything already. Haha. So like what my family and close friends said, maybe I should just learn to let go of all those silly stuff, and maybe I don't have to follow rules all the time anymore. But just to let you know, I am very upset/hurt because of you haha.
Okay I know I am a lucky girl. I have family and friends around me who care for me. I have JH too but sometimes I feel very tired of everything even though everything is perfect. Have you ever felt that your life is good enough or you are very satisfied with everything so far and you are ready to go? Haha. I feel this way all the time! Dreams and goals are all just superficial, no? Things seldom happen the way you want them to be, it's really boring and demoralising. I know there are people who are in much worse situations than me, but I think everyone will have a fair share of ups and downs in life and it all depends on how you look at them, right? Haha. My life is awesome, but I am very depressed all the time. So yeah. But I hope I won't lose all these stuff.
Anyways tell you a secret, I have been thinking of getting a tattoo with my sister since like ages ago, inspired by my father hahaha. But still don't know where to tattoo! :/ Okay I think this might be a crazy post to whoever who reads it hahaha. But okay, maybe I won't do it. Haha. All the best to everyone around me in 2010! :):)
K bye!