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not much to say. just a post to say that i am indeed still alive. :-P
i've been majorly avoiding my past lately. i guess that's the problem when you're basically trying to change your identity. though i guess it's possible that i'm trying to change my identity because i am running from my past. something of a chicken/egg conundrum.
not sure what i will do once i get to roanoke. thinking of doing the whole school thing. but as we all know, i have some problems with the follow-through. but maybe now, now that i have no safety-net. maybe that's what i needed to pull this off.
transitionwise:
my voice has changed a lot. specifically my singing voice. it's so different and it's happened so suddenly that i really don't know how to use it again yet. if i go off of what i know from before completely different tones come out. it's awesome.
also the facial hair is coming in pretty nicely now at least on the bottom of my chin and my sideburns. not much, but it all sort of just grew in suddenly this last week or two. it's enough that i pass pretty much all the time out in public.
in bad news, the doctor i went to see here about getting a prescription for T basically blew me off. it's probably better in the long run, because i should get a dr in roanoke anyway. and i have basically enough T to last me until the move. and besides, it's not like the more noticeable changes would revert overnight, or even at all if i was off it for a month or so. i just wouldn't want to be because it would mess with my emotions/how i feel physically.
anyway this little entry turned out longer than i thought.
oh. i broke my desk today. :-P I wasn't planning on taking it with me to Roanoke and I am starting to try and organize my stuff for the move. So i decided to toss the damn thing down the stairs and then basically kick it apart. it was very satisfying! i felt so much better.
we'll see. maybe i'll pull through.
i've been majorly avoiding my past lately. i guess that's the problem when you're basically trying to change your identity. though i guess it's possible that i'm trying to change my identity because i am running from my past. something of a chicken/egg conundrum.
not sure what i will do once i get to roanoke. thinking of doing the whole school thing. but as we all know, i have some problems with the follow-through. but maybe now, now that i have no safety-net. maybe that's what i needed to pull this off.
transitionwise:
my voice has changed a lot. specifically my singing voice. it's so different and it's happened so suddenly that i really don't know how to use it again yet. if i go off of what i know from before completely different tones come out. it's awesome.
also the facial hair is coming in pretty nicely now at least on the bottom of my chin and my sideburns. not much, but it all sort of just grew in suddenly this last week or two. it's enough that i pass pretty much all the time out in public.
in bad news, the doctor i went to see here about getting a prescription for T basically blew me off. it's probably better in the long run, because i should get a dr in roanoke anyway. and i have basically enough T to last me until the move. and besides, it's not like the more noticeable changes would revert overnight, or even at all if i was off it for a month or so. i just wouldn't want to be because it would mess with my emotions/how i feel physically.
anyway this little entry turned out longer than i thought.
oh. i broke my desk today. :-P I wasn't planning on taking it with me to Roanoke and I am starting to try and organize my stuff for the move. So i decided to toss the damn thing down the stairs and then basically kick it apart. it was very satisfying! i felt so much better.
we'll see. maybe i'll pull through.