False - GacktXHyde
Title: False
Authour: Dana
Pairing: GacktXHyde
Rating: NC-17 really!!!!
Warnings: Yaoi, mpreg, non beta, fluff, angst, kinky sex, crack....
Genre: Angst, med terms, mpreg, yaoi
Disclaimer: I own nothing and make no profit with this
When Hyde walked out of the shower he found his lover on the bed watching some European horror movie. He smiled and walked over to him.
“Do you have to watch that movie now?”
Gackt didn’t even look at him as he replied, “Yeah, I already started watching it.”
Hyde pouted, he got on the bed and crawled over to Gackt, with one fluid motion he straddled him successfully blocking the screen with his upper body. Gackt grinned; Hyde only wore a towel around his hips.
“Wouldn’t you rather play with me?” He purred and lowered himself down to grind his ass against Gackt’s groin.
“Who wouldn’t? You make a very nice toy.” Gackt bit his lower lip.
“Toy?” Hyde tried to pull off an offended look, but the truth was he needed Gackt too much to fight with him. He did that often, compromise for the sake of their relationship. After all Gackt had to put up with the fact that Hyde wasn’t his completely and sooner or later had to go home to his wife. It seemed only reasonable to let Gackt get away with silly things like that.
“You know I don’t mean that in any kind of disrespectful way.” Gackt looked him in the eyes, his hand went up and he cupped Hyde’s face, smoothly running his thumb over Hyde’s lips before pulling him down to crash their lips together. He loved, no; he worshiped the way Hyde often moaned into the kiss. The most sensual sounds came from the back of his throat giving Gackt just the right blood rushes.
Hyde opened his mouth the moment their lips met. Gackt took him ferociously, quickly, disposing of the white towel and throwing away; he wrapped his arms around the petite body possessively and rolled over to get on top of it. He kissed and bit Hyde’s neck so brutally he almost bruised the skin.
Hyde threw his head back and whimpered, “Take me! Gackt please!”
Gackt grinned and lifted himself off his moaning aroused lover. He hastily undressed himself still watching the perfect little body waiting to be taken by him, waiting so exposed and needy. He wished Hyde could be just his own, he knew they both suffered for it, but at times he could help but get frustrated and take it out on Hyde. And he wanted to do just that now. He crawled away to the foot of the bed and sat.
Confused, Hyde sat up and looked at him. A smirk played across Gackt’s face. “We really should play a bit. So how about we play hard?”
Hyde knew what it was all about. He didn’t like it, but it wasn’t like he hated it either. Whenever he and Gackt would fight, whenever there was something wrong that was bugging Gackt, he would take it out through sex. Hot, brutal sex. And Hyde knew why Gackt needed it today. They haven’t seen each other in a while and today while he was nodding blissfully on Gackt’s chest after their afternoon bit more then a cuddle Gackt was going through some magazines, and in one he saw a picture of him and his wife. It hurt Gackt to even thing about it, it infuriated him to have it shoved in his face.
Hyde nodded slightly, “What do you want?”
“Lie back down and spread your legs.”
Hyde obeyed, they were sitting opposite of each other, so now that Hyde lied down and spread his legs he was open right in front of Gackt.
Gackt licked his lips, “Perfect! Now give yourself a hand job. Jerk off your dick and make sure you cum, you are going to need it to lube yourself. Because when you are done, when you milk your cock dry, I want you to finger fuck yourself.”
Hyde closed his eyes. He didn’t exactly like the idea. But none the less he did as he was told. He closed his hand around his erection and started stroking it. He bit his lip, eyes still closed and blushing furiously he moaned at the pleasure that ran through him. He pumped the length fast and Gackt told him to slow down. It was torture. He needed release and Gackt knew it that is why he told him to take it slow, so that he can enjoy the show. He continued to stroke himself, every now and then reaching his hand down from the length to cup and lightly squeeze his balls.
He felt heath rise inside his lower abdomen and gripped his length harder, giving it a few final strokes and running his hand over the tip of his cock to cum inside it. He paused and looked at his hand, spread the cum over his index and middle finger. He spread his legs further apart and bent them more in the knees, his toes curled in the sheets.
Hyde ghosted his lubed fingers over the tight entrance, hesitating. He wasn’t used to this kind of play. Gackt often finger fucked him, in fact it seemed Gackt liked to do it, but he never did it himself, to himself or to anyone else.
“You should spread some of your cum over the tight ring and first push just one finger in if you have doubts. But I always fuck you with two fingers from the starts, your body it used to it.” Gackt told him.
Hyde whispered “Alright.” and pushed two fingers in. He wasn’t sure it was the right thing to do, but his doubt soon vanished. Gackt was right, it did hurt, but only as much as it always does, and it felt good at the same time. Hyde fucked himself fast, it didn’t feel as good as when Gackt fingered him because he didn’t have much experience, but it still felt good. He threw his head back again and moaned. He pushed the finger in as deep as he could and took them out almost all the whole way before thrusting them in again, hard and fast.
Gackt really did enjoy the show. He liked fingering Hyde, it felt very dominating. He did it more then often, sometimes even when they would start off just making out he would pull down Hyde’s pants and fuck him hard and long. He loved the sight of the smaller man moaning and panting, wincing in pain but begging for more, begging for something bigger then fingers. He grinned. As much as he liked the show he really wanted to join in. But no, not yet.
He got off the bed and before he got into the bathroom he looked back at Hyde and told him not to stop. When he came back, in his hand he held a slightly large dildo. Hyde frowned, that he really didn’t like. Gackt only used it when he wanted to fuck Hyde so hard ‘till he was completely exhausted. Because, let’s face it, there was only so much he could do with his own cock, a human can only go so much, and no matter how high Gackt’s libido was and no matter how strong his stamina was, he simply couldn’t fuck Hyde that much on his own.
So he figured out a good way. At times, Hyde was glad it was rare; Gackt would use the dildo on him. Fuck him with it again and again, and then fuck him with his own cock and go back to the dildo. Gackt told him once he fucked him after he passed out because when he blacked out he was, so to say, on the dildo, and Gackt didn’t want to jerk himself off to get rid of his erection. Hyde actually didn’t get mad when he heard that.
Gackt threw the dildo next to Hyde and returned to his best seat for the show. “You know what to do.”
Hyde swallowed a lump in his throat and took the large object.
“Suck it first; you don’t want to push it in dry.”
This time Hyde took Gackt advice. He found himself getting even more aroused at the idea. He licked the tip of the fake cock before the pushed it in his mouth, deep-throating himself. He took it out and watched a small sting of saliva stretch itself between his lower lip and the cock’s tip. Two fingers still in ass he spread them to scissor himself open, when he felt the tip go in he removed his fingers, it was quite uncomfortable to have both hands down there.
The pushed the whole length of the sex toy in himself screaming softly in pleasure. He only thrust it himself a few times before the pushed it in and let it go.
Gackt grinned, he knew Hyde did that to call him in. “What is wrong honey?”
Hyde moaned, “I can’t! You make it feel so good! Please!” He rolled over on his belly, dildo still half way in him, and got on all fours. He presented his delicious backside to Gackt. “Please!” He begged again.
“How can I say no to something like this?” Gackt crawled over to him and grabbed the dildo. He took it out and bent over to plant kisses at Hyde shoulder and whisper in his ear.
“Tell me darling, do you want my cock or the rubber one? Or do you want one and then the other?”
“I want both!” Hyde panted. “Do it as you wish, one then the other! Please!”
“Are you sure? You are always so reluctant about using the dildo?”
Hyde moaned and shivered, he felt Gackt’s breath on his ear, he felt Gackt’s torso pressing against his back and the tip of Gackt’s dick pointing against his tight. “Just put something in me! Please, now! Fill me up! Fuck me!”
“As you wish.” Gackt whispered. He licked his way down Hyde’s back and down one cheek to his thigh. He liked the way Hyde arched his back, so feline. He sat on his legs and positioned the tip of the dildo at his lover’s entrance. He thrust it in hard and fast and when it was in the whole way he paused enough to ask; “Is this what you want?”
Hyde screamed “yes!” and bowed his head down as he felt the large cock fuck him. Gackt knew what he was doing, angling the dildo jus right, pushing it in, holding it in and moving it around a bit, taking it out all the way and plunging back in. Hyde moaned and screamed for all he was worth, swaying his hips to meet the furious thrust Gackt’s was making with the toy. He was hard again and from the tip of his cock dripped sperm, stimulated out from his prostate by Gackt professional treatment.
He was begging Gackt to go harder and faster somewhere within the endless moans and screams, calling his lover a god, begging him never to leave him. His mind found very little coherent thought. Gackt needed his release soon to. He took the dildo out and showed himself in. He wrapped an arm around Hyde’s waist to grab his erection and stroke him into his second climax.
Gackt knew how to make Hyde come without ever touching his dick, but for some reason, lately angry sex didn’t hold him for long. He had grown soft, wanting more what Hyde did; cuddles and kisses and tender sex. He was now way passed wanting to punish Hyde, all he needed was to hear him beg and to see him degrade himself just because he wanted him to do so.
When Hyde felt it was Gackt inside him he turned his head around to whisper “I love you. Do with me what you wish, just don’t ever leave me.”
Gackt closed his eyes in pleasure; at both the words and the feeling of the inner walls of his lover’s little body stroke his cock with each furious thrust. He threw his head back with a groan, their bodies moved in perfect sync, Hyde was meeting his every thrust letting loose those sensual sounds that drove Gackt to the realms of pure ecstasy. He loved the way Hyde lost all inhibitions when having sex, usually reluctant about getting into anything seemingly kinky, when fucked right his body would convince his mind and heart to give in. Give in to the waves of pleasure sent through his body like right now, the feeling of belonging to someone and being needed by someone.
Before he came, Gackt increased the pace and force of his thrust, pumping Hyde’s cock ‘till he heard the other scream out as he released into Gackt’s hand. He soon followed his lover into climax induced ecstasy, filling him with his hot cum. He heard Hyde sigh as his softening member was pulled out of his body. Hyde’s hands gave out and he crashed down on the bed, panting and trembling. Gackt was caring enough not to fall on top of him, but rolled over and lay on his back. In his arms he collected the trembling body and let it rest its head against his chest. He rand his fingers through messy strands of Hyde’s hair, listening to his breathing even out.
There was no denying it, Gackt thought Hyde was perfect; he had a perfect voice, and almost baby-face features, his physic may have been lacking some height but it more then made up for it with the perfect built. He event thought Hyde made the prefect choice of tattoos, angel wings suited him. With a wistful sigh he wrapped his arms possessively around Hyde and spoke.
“I wish you were all mine.”
Hyde closed his eyes and hugged his lover, but said nothing.
“I wish I met you sooner. But tell me love, would things be any different?”
Hyde lifted his head to look at Gackt, “If I could, I would give up everything for you. And I do belong to you.” His eyes were full of lingering sorrow that caged them both. “No one else has my heart!”
Gackt made a sad smile, “Do you love me?”
Hyde sat up, wincing at the pain shooting up his spine. Gackt frowned “Hey, hey, you should stay still a bit longer or you’ll be sore.” Eve though he was smiling he was serious, he didn’t want Hyde to get hurt.
Hyde shook his head. “Saying those three words, such simple words, seems to diminish the meaning of my feelings for you because those words are not strong enough to even begin to describe how much I love you.”
That was enough for Gackt, he pulled his lover back into him embrace, “Not strong enough for me either, but I do love you. I guess I just have to live with the fact that as much as you are perfect we simply aren’t.” As he sadly gave in to destiny once more ha had no idea just how good the news he will get a few days later are going to be.
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In the dead of the night Gackt woke up to someone franticly ringing the door bell. Grimly and grumpily he stormed down stairs to kill whoever it was waking him up.
He yelled, “Who the hell is it?”
From the other side came the voice he just couldn’t stay all that mad at, “It’s me, Hyde.”
He opened the door to let the other in, worried as to what might have happened to have Hyde come to him in such a late hour. As soon as the doors were open and he was face to face with Hyde he noticed his lover was grinning madly. He quickly closed the distance between them and buried his face in Gackt’s chest, wrapping his arms around him.
“What happened? I can tell it’s not bad because you are smiling.”
Hyde looked up at him still grinning, “You won’t believe this, and you won’t believe our luck!”
Gackt raised an eyebrow as he shut the door; he took a few steps back with his lover still clinging onto him. “Tell me all about it, I’m really curious.”
They walked into the living room, Hyde letting him out of the hug but taking his hand. They sat on the couch and Gackt couldn’t help but smile at his lover’s excitement.
“So? Don’t keep me waiting? Are the news good?”
Hyde nodded. “I love you!”
Gackt smiled, “I love you too. Can you tell me what this is all about because you are really making me nervous.”
“First you have to kiss me and hold me and tell me how I mean to you more then anything in the world.”
Gackt wasn’t the one to disobey such a request; he pulled his lover into his arms and crushed their lips together instantly gaining entrance into Hyde’s mouth. He held the smaller body close to his own, tightly holding it as if his life depended on it. When he broke the kiss he spoke, “You know you mean more to me than anything in the world.”
Their lips were still close, the words spoken Hyde felt as breath on his lips. It made him shiver. He heard and felt Gackt speak again.
“Now tell me the news!”
Hyde nodded, Gackt held grip of his arms above his elbows. Gackt was so much taller then him so his head as raised to meet Gackt’s eyes. He smiled, “I’m getting a divorce!”
For a few second Gackt didn’t know how to react. He thought he was dreaming, he must have, he had this dream before. He stared into Hyde’s eyes waiting to wake up, but he didn’t.
“Really? Are you sure?” He muttered.
Hyde frowned, “Yes I’m sure. Megumi and I talked about this the whole day and a good part of the night. We have decided it will be best to get this marriage over and done with.”
A wide smile spread across Gackt face, in his mind he was thanking whatever higher power brought this upon. “You are getting divorced. You are going to be all mine.”
Hyde nodded with him, both smiling. Gackt started kissing his forehead, his cheeks, his lips, his neck, embracing him ever closer.
It was finally the time for them to be complete.
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Few weeks later the divorce was final and Hyde moved in with Gackt. It was a peaceful divorce; Megumi took the child with more than fair visitation rights to Hyde. Gackt seemed to be in heaven, he was exited about every aspect of their life together. The way he didn’t have to go, the way they didn’t have to count minutes, waking up to see Hyde still blissfully sleeping next to him.
Then one evening while he was cuddling Hyde after sex, he said something pretty blunt, unaware of just how much it would affect Hyde. He didn’t know just how bad Hyde felt about stringing Gackt along for so long.
Gackt kissed Hyde’s forehead and hugged him. He sighed, “I wish I could make you my bride, and have kids with you.” He smiled and nodded off.
But Hyde had a hard time falling asleep. He understood what Gackt meant, or at least thought he did. For so long Gackt had to see him with his family while he was just a dirty secret. He felt horrible about not being able to give Gackt all he wished, he felt bad for having Gackt put up with so much just to be with him.
No, they couldn’t get married and no, he couldn’t give Gackt children. Feeling uneasy, Hyde had trouble falling asleep.
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Over the next months Gackt felt truly happy, everything seemed to be in order; he had his lover by his side and freedom to do as he pleases. No more secrets. He now had Hyde entirely.
That morning Gackt woke up to find Hyde in the bathroom kneeling next to the toilet.
“Are you ok? You look horrible?” He kneeled by his lover’s side and gripped his shoulder.
Hyde shook his head. He shut his eyes and whimpered; second later he was leaning over the toilet again.
“Oh god, did you get food poisoning?” Gackt frowned.
“No, I don’t think so.” Hyde took deep breaths and rested his hand over his mouth.
“Can you get up?”
Hyde nodded, “I don’t think I have any more in me.”
Gackt helped him get up and get to the sink to brush his teeth and wash his face. After he went back to the room, when Hyde came in he gestured him to join him in bed.
“We need to get you to a doctor.”
Hyde shook his head, “I don’t want to go to doctors.”
“I’m not asking, I’m telling you. You have been feeling sick for days, you get dizzy and faint.”
Hyde took his lover hand and kissed his knuckles. “I can’t go. I’m embarrassed.”
Gackt frowned, “What do you mean? If you don’t want me to go with you I’ll wait in the car.”
Hyde smiled lovingly. “Darling, do you love me?”
Gackt raised an eyebrow, confused by the timing of the question. “What does me loving you has to do with the fact that you’ve bee sick for days now?”
But before he could get up in protest of the Hyde avoiding the subject Hyde maneuvered and straddled his leg, sitting in his lap facing him. He smiled and planted soft kisses on Gackt’s lips. “I don’t know how to explain.”
“Just tell me, you are confusing me.”
Hyde bit his lower lip nervously before he spoke. “Don’t think I’m crazy please. You see, um, I think I’m pregnant.”
Gackt didn’t think he was crazy, he thought he was joking. He laughed, it was a good joke. All of Hyde’s symptoms indicated pregnancy. “That is funny.”
With a pout and frown Hyde pushed himself of Gackt’s lap. “Do you really think I’m joking?”
Hyde started walking nervously around the room, every now and there shooting angry glares at Gackt. The silence was stretching out. Gackt felt his heart beat in his throat. Was his lover going mad?
“Honey, be reasonable. You can’t be pregnant.” He got up and caught up with Hyde on the other side of the room. He tried to pull him into his arms but the smaller one protested and tried to push him away. But couldn’t he was swiftly locked in his lover’s embrace. Gackt spoke to him, holding him tightly. “You are a man. I know that very well.”
“Please believe me. I’m not insane, I know it, and I feel it. But I’m pregnant.” Hyde sobbed into his chest.
Gackt sighed and decided to listen and try to figure out what was wrong with his loved one. “Tell me how you came to that conclusion.” He released Hyde from his arms but lead him to a near by chair. He kneeled in front of him and took his hands into his.
Hyde swallowed a lump before he spoke. “It all adds up. Just think about it, I’ve been getting morning sickness, I’ve been fainting and feeling tired all the time. Strong odors make me sick. I know I’m mad to even think that. But I can’t help it.” He paused and bit his lip pulling on it with his teeth. “So I took a pregnancy test just to prove to myself I was wrong and put it out of my mind.”
Wide eyed and freaked out Gackt breathed out; “And?”
“I took seven tests in the last three days.” He looked into Gackt eyes. “They were all positive.”
Gackt mouth literally dropped. “Maybe it’s a mistake!” Yes, it had to be a mistake.
But Hyde shook his head, “Today’s pregnancy tests are very accurate. Plus I took seven of them. There are three more if you want me to take them so I can show you. I didn’t take any today.”
Gackt nodded and followed after Hyde into the bathroom. Out of one drawer Hyde took out a small box and opened it. He showed the pen looking object to Gackt. “This is it.”
A few minutes later Gackt was staring into the small box reading the instructions on in over and over again. Every now and then he would look back at the test. This couldn’t be. It was confirming Hyde’s claims. Gackt looked around the bathroom and noticed Hyde wasn’t in it anymore. He walked back into the room and saw Hyde sitting on the bed hugging a pillow.
“This is for real?” He asked, noting that his hands were trembling.
Hyde nodded, “I’m sorry. But now you see why I can’t go to a doctor.”
Gackt sat by his side. “What do we do? If you are pregnant we really do need to get you to a doctor.”
Hyde shook his head and frowned, “No! They will see me as some sort or a freak of nature and experiment on me!”
“Hyde, I love you. But if you are pregnant, maybe the best and healthiest thing to do is to abort, and for that we will need a doctor.”
“How can you say that?! I am pregnant, you saw the test. Besides you said you wanted to have kids with me.”
Gackt sighed in defeat; he really did wish they could be a family. But this was far from normal and he felt it was far from possible. “And what do we do? Not go to doctors? Even if you bear through your pregnancy, I doubt I need to inform you, you can’t deliver the baby.”
Hyde looked down and shut his eyes. “Then just give us time. We will go to the doctor when I’m well into this pregnancy, if it really is a pregnancy. That way it will be illegal to terminate it. Please!”
“God, I hope you know what you are doing. But this feels so wrong to me.” Gackt stroked Hyde’s hair.
Hyde laid a hand over his belly. “But is feels right to me.”
As days went on through the endlessly slow beat of the pendulum Gackt couldn’t shake the dreadfully feelings of unease. All was wrong. His loved one was a step from having a nervous break down. There was something wrong with him. It couldn’t have been a pregnancy. Gackt was sure he paid just enough attention in school to know for sure men do not bear kids, at least not physically. So he gave into research and found nothing to ease his heart.
Even though Hyde himself doubted he could truly be pregnant it was clear to see he wished he could. The whole situation was making a gap between him and Gackt and he wished he could mend it. But the only was to do so was to give in and go to a doctor. Hyde couldn’t do that. What if he was pregnant? They would make him abort, run test, label him as a freak. And what if doctors showed he really wasn’t pregnant? He knew his heart twisted at the very thought.
After walking into the room to see Hyde petting his slightly swollen belly Gackt could take no more.
“That is it! This is wrong and you know it!” He stormed up to Hyde and pulled the small body roughly into his arms. “No matter how you look at it, it is wrong beyond all counts!”
Hyde found it hard to control his emotions, particularly when the subject of his “might-be child” was brought up. As Gackt glared menacingly into his eyes Hyde felt them water up. “I can’t. Why won’t you understand?”
“I love you!” Gackt gripped Hyde’s arms stronger and shook him up a bit. “I love you! And you need help! This is so far from right it has forgotten it’s meaning.” He loosened up his grasp and hugged his now sobbing lover. “You already have a child. Not with me but it is your child. We can adopt or something. But I can’t let you hurt yourself.”
Gackt kissed the top of messy black hair as he ran his fingers through it. “It could be a cancer or something. It could be a nervous break down. No matter what it is, the longer we wait the harder it will be to save you from it. To save you from yourself.”
Hyde nodded against Gackt chest. He knew there was reason in his words. “Can you call and make an appointment for me?”
“For us. We are going together.”
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The next day the two paid a visit to Hyde’s doctor. Hyde felt too embarrassed to even talk. Gackt sighed and took the initiative.
“He is displaying almost every symptom of pregnancy but we all know that can’t be so.”
Doctor looked at Gackt who was keeping his eyes on his lover and Hyde who was looking at the floor. “I’m not sure we all know.”
He collected some papers, “We will take you blood, urine and send you to a few tests. It could be a physical problem. Very real. Most likely cancer.”
Both Hyde and Gackt looked up with wide eyes.
“But it might as well not be. I will see you two tomorrow and discus with you the results.” He showed them out of his office and handed Hyde over to a nurse who took him to get his blood and the rest.
Both deadly quiet for the rest of the day, Hyde and Gackt took it to simply holding each other in silent comfort. Gackt was sure it couldn’t have been anything that bad. He just knew it.
Sitting in the doctor’s office the following day, Hyde felt his world crumbling so he held onto Gackt.
“I invited a colleague of mine to join us later on. I’m glad to say it’s not cancer or anything like that.”
Gackt and Hyde both sighed in relief. Gackt spoke, “But what is it?” He felt Hyde tense up next to him.
“Pseudocyesis. Or in simple terms false or hysterical pregnancy.” Doctor took a deep breath and sighed. “This does not happen very often. Not to mention in males.”
Hyde swallowed a lump. “So it’s a psychological problem?”
“Yes. It is. And it’s easily taken care of.” Doctor got up and led Hyde to the other side of his office where he instructed him to lay on an examination table and lift his shirt. “I will show you that you are in fact not pregnant as I was instructed to by my colleague. We will do an ultrasound.”
It was true. Hyde felt like crying. There was nothing in him. He had imagined it all. On the other side of the office Gackt sat in silence feeling incredibly guilty.
Later on when the therapist came and explained to them how and why pseudocyesis came about Gackt felt even worse. Hyde seemed to be taking it well. After he got over the initial shock he felt somewhat relieved by all.
When they arrived home Gackt finally found it in him to speak. “I’m so sorry!”
Hyde looked back at him. “Why?”
“This is all my fault. If I hadn’t made you feel guilty, first about being married and later on about the fact that we could never have a family together none of this would have happened. Please forgive me.”
Hyde walked over to him and snuggled himself against his chest. “It’s not your fault. Thinking back, it was very foolish. I just feel so stupid.”
Gackt smiled and hugged his little lover. “When is your first appointment with the therapist?”
“Next week. He said that later on you might need to come with me.”
“I will darling. I’ll do anything.”
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Heating up while making out with Gackt was just too easy and came so very fast. It didn’t take Hyde very long to start moaning and begging. Gackt merly found it amusing. He still wasn’t up to just going on as if nothing happened.
He pushed Hyde down of himself and leaned over him. “Maybe we should wait a bit.”
Hyde bit his lip. He knew all too well just how kinky Gackt liked to get. And within his personal arsenal he now held just the right stuff. “Really? Well I think I know something you will like.”
Gackt smirked. “You do?”
Hyde purred and arched his back, exposing his chest further to his lover. “Lick me!” He moaned. “My chest, lick my nipples.”
“Who am I to disobey?” Gackt grinned and leaned down. He pressed his hot tongue against Hyde’s erect nipple. Hyde threw his head back and moaned. He breathed “Suck!”
Gackt couldn’t believe it. He looked up at Hyde. “You mean? No way!”
Hyde wriggled impatiently. “Just do it!”
“Your wish is my command!”
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Word from Dana: Well if you can't guess what that last part was about you really don't know me very well... Feel free to ask if you are not shy! X3
So that is it my sweethearts, I shall not be doing any more mpreg and that is it! It wall take an awful lot to convince me to write any more mpreg. Really! I mean it this time!
So this had all: angst, fluff, kinky pr0n, mpreg(kinda).... I fooled ya there! Hahahaha!!!!
If you comment I'll share my chocolate pretzels with you!!! No flame if possible... It's hot enough as it is.
Authour: Dana
Pairing: GacktXHyde
Rating: NC-17 really!!!!
Warnings: Yaoi, mpreg, non beta, fluff, angst, kinky sex, crack....
Genre: Angst, med terms, mpreg, yaoi
Disclaimer: I own nothing and make no profit with this
When Hyde walked out of the shower he found his lover on the bed watching some European horror movie. He smiled and walked over to him.
“Do you have to watch that movie now?”
Gackt didn’t even look at him as he replied, “Yeah, I already started watching it.”
Hyde pouted, he got on the bed and crawled over to Gackt, with one fluid motion he straddled him successfully blocking the screen with his upper body. Gackt grinned; Hyde only wore a towel around his hips.
“Wouldn’t you rather play with me?” He purred and lowered himself down to grind his ass against Gackt’s groin.
“Who wouldn’t? You make a very nice toy.” Gackt bit his lower lip.
“Toy?” Hyde tried to pull off an offended look, but the truth was he needed Gackt too much to fight with him. He did that often, compromise for the sake of their relationship. After all Gackt had to put up with the fact that Hyde wasn’t his completely and sooner or later had to go home to his wife. It seemed only reasonable to let Gackt get away with silly things like that.
“You know I don’t mean that in any kind of disrespectful way.” Gackt looked him in the eyes, his hand went up and he cupped Hyde’s face, smoothly running his thumb over Hyde’s lips before pulling him down to crash their lips together. He loved, no; he worshiped the way Hyde often moaned into the kiss. The most sensual sounds came from the back of his throat giving Gackt just the right blood rushes.
Hyde opened his mouth the moment their lips met. Gackt took him ferociously, quickly, disposing of the white towel and throwing away; he wrapped his arms around the petite body possessively and rolled over to get on top of it. He kissed and bit Hyde’s neck so brutally he almost bruised the skin.
Hyde threw his head back and whimpered, “Take me! Gackt please!”
Gackt grinned and lifted himself off his moaning aroused lover. He hastily undressed himself still watching the perfect little body waiting to be taken by him, waiting so exposed and needy. He wished Hyde could be just his own, he knew they both suffered for it, but at times he could help but get frustrated and take it out on Hyde. And he wanted to do just that now. He crawled away to the foot of the bed and sat.
Confused, Hyde sat up and looked at him. A smirk played across Gackt’s face. “We really should play a bit. So how about we play hard?”
Hyde knew what it was all about. He didn’t like it, but it wasn’t like he hated it either. Whenever he and Gackt would fight, whenever there was something wrong that was bugging Gackt, he would take it out through sex. Hot, brutal sex. And Hyde knew why Gackt needed it today. They haven’t seen each other in a while and today while he was nodding blissfully on Gackt’s chest after their afternoon bit more then a cuddle Gackt was going through some magazines, and in one he saw a picture of him and his wife. It hurt Gackt to even thing about it, it infuriated him to have it shoved in his face.
Hyde nodded slightly, “What do you want?”
“Lie back down and spread your legs.”
Hyde obeyed, they were sitting opposite of each other, so now that Hyde lied down and spread his legs he was open right in front of Gackt.
Gackt licked his lips, “Perfect! Now give yourself a hand job. Jerk off your dick and make sure you cum, you are going to need it to lube yourself. Because when you are done, when you milk your cock dry, I want you to finger fuck yourself.”
Hyde closed his eyes. He didn’t exactly like the idea. But none the less he did as he was told. He closed his hand around his erection and started stroking it. He bit his lip, eyes still closed and blushing furiously he moaned at the pleasure that ran through him. He pumped the length fast and Gackt told him to slow down. It was torture. He needed release and Gackt knew it that is why he told him to take it slow, so that he can enjoy the show. He continued to stroke himself, every now and then reaching his hand down from the length to cup and lightly squeeze his balls.
He felt heath rise inside his lower abdomen and gripped his length harder, giving it a few final strokes and running his hand over the tip of his cock to cum inside it. He paused and looked at his hand, spread the cum over his index and middle finger. He spread his legs further apart and bent them more in the knees, his toes curled in the sheets.
Hyde ghosted his lubed fingers over the tight entrance, hesitating. He wasn’t used to this kind of play. Gackt often finger fucked him, in fact it seemed Gackt liked to do it, but he never did it himself, to himself or to anyone else.
“You should spread some of your cum over the tight ring and first push just one finger in if you have doubts. But I always fuck you with two fingers from the starts, your body it used to it.” Gackt told him.
Hyde whispered “Alright.” and pushed two fingers in. He wasn’t sure it was the right thing to do, but his doubt soon vanished. Gackt was right, it did hurt, but only as much as it always does, and it felt good at the same time. Hyde fucked himself fast, it didn’t feel as good as when Gackt fingered him because he didn’t have much experience, but it still felt good. He threw his head back again and moaned. He pushed the finger in as deep as he could and took them out almost all the whole way before thrusting them in again, hard and fast.
Gackt really did enjoy the show. He liked fingering Hyde, it felt very dominating. He did it more then often, sometimes even when they would start off just making out he would pull down Hyde’s pants and fuck him hard and long. He loved the sight of the smaller man moaning and panting, wincing in pain but begging for more, begging for something bigger then fingers. He grinned. As much as he liked the show he really wanted to join in. But no, not yet.
He got off the bed and before he got into the bathroom he looked back at Hyde and told him not to stop. When he came back, in his hand he held a slightly large dildo. Hyde frowned, that he really didn’t like. Gackt only used it when he wanted to fuck Hyde so hard ‘till he was completely exhausted. Because, let’s face it, there was only so much he could do with his own cock, a human can only go so much, and no matter how high Gackt’s libido was and no matter how strong his stamina was, he simply couldn’t fuck Hyde that much on his own.
So he figured out a good way. At times, Hyde was glad it was rare; Gackt would use the dildo on him. Fuck him with it again and again, and then fuck him with his own cock and go back to the dildo. Gackt told him once he fucked him after he passed out because when he blacked out he was, so to say, on the dildo, and Gackt didn’t want to jerk himself off to get rid of his erection. Hyde actually didn’t get mad when he heard that.
Gackt threw the dildo next to Hyde and returned to his best seat for the show. “You know what to do.”
Hyde swallowed a lump in his throat and took the large object.
“Suck it first; you don’t want to push it in dry.”
This time Hyde took Gackt advice. He found himself getting even more aroused at the idea. He licked the tip of the fake cock before the pushed it in his mouth, deep-throating himself. He took it out and watched a small sting of saliva stretch itself between his lower lip and the cock’s tip. Two fingers still in ass he spread them to scissor himself open, when he felt the tip go in he removed his fingers, it was quite uncomfortable to have both hands down there.
The pushed the whole length of the sex toy in himself screaming softly in pleasure. He only thrust it himself a few times before the pushed it in and let it go.
Gackt grinned, he knew Hyde did that to call him in. “What is wrong honey?”
Hyde moaned, “I can’t! You make it feel so good! Please!” He rolled over on his belly, dildo still half way in him, and got on all fours. He presented his delicious backside to Gackt. “Please!” He begged again.
“How can I say no to something like this?” Gackt crawled over to him and grabbed the dildo. He took it out and bent over to plant kisses at Hyde shoulder and whisper in his ear.
“Tell me darling, do you want my cock or the rubber one? Or do you want one and then the other?”
“I want both!” Hyde panted. “Do it as you wish, one then the other! Please!”
“Are you sure? You are always so reluctant about using the dildo?”
Hyde moaned and shivered, he felt Gackt’s breath on his ear, he felt Gackt’s torso pressing against his back and the tip of Gackt’s dick pointing against his tight. “Just put something in me! Please, now! Fill me up! Fuck me!”
“As you wish.” Gackt whispered. He licked his way down Hyde’s back and down one cheek to his thigh. He liked the way Hyde arched his back, so feline. He sat on his legs and positioned the tip of the dildo at his lover’s entrance. He thrust it in hard and fast and when it was in the whole way he paused enough to ask; “Is this what you want?”
Hyde screamed “yes!” and bowed his head down as he felt the large cock fuck him. Gackt knew what he was doing, angling the dildo jus right, pushing it in, holding it in and moving it around a bit, taking it out all the way and plunging back in. Hyde moaned and screamed for all he was worth, swaying his hips to meet the furious thrust Gackt’s was making with the toy. He was hard again and from the tip of his cock dripped sperm, stimulated out from his prostate by Gackt professional treatment.
He was begging Gackt to go harder and faster somewhere within the endless moans and screams, calling his lover a god, begging him never to leave him. His mind found very little coherent thought. Gackt needed his release soon to. He took the dildo out and showed himself in. He wrapped an arm around Hyde’s waist to grab his erection and stroke him into his second climax.
Gackt knew how to make Hyde come without ever touching his dick, but for some reason, lately angry sex didn’t hold him for long. He had grown soft, wanting more what Hyde did; cuddles and kisses and tender sex. He was now way passed wanting to punish Hyde, all he needed was to hear him beg and to see him degrade himself just because he wanted him to do so.
When Hyde felt it was Gackt inside him he turned his head around to whisper “I love you. Do with me what you wish, just don’t ever leave me.”
Gackt closed his eyes in pleasure; at both the words and the feeling of the inner walls of his lover’s little body stroke his cock with each furious thrust. He threw his head back with a groan, their bodies moved in perfect sync, Hyde was meeting his every thrust letting loose those sensual sounds that drove Gackt to the realms of pure ecstasy. He loved the way Hyde lost all inhibitions when having sex, usually reluctant about getting into anything seemingly kinky, when fucked right his body would convince his mind and heart to give in. Give in to the waves of pleasure sent through his body like right now, the feeling of belonging to someone and being needed by someone.
Before he came, Gackt increased the pace and force of his thrust, pumping Hyde’s cock ‘till he heard the other scream out as he released into Gackt’s hand. He soon followed his lover into climax induced ecstasy, filling him with his hot cum. He heard Hyde sigh as his softening member was pulled out of his body. Hyde’s hands gave out and he crashed down on the bed, panting and trembling. Gackt was caring enough not to fall on top of him, but rolled over and lay on his back. In his arms he collected the trembling body and let it rest its head against his chest. He rand his fingers through messy strands of Hyde’s hair, listening to his breathing even out.
There was no denying it, Gackt thought Hyde was perfect; he had a perfect voice, and almost baby-face features, his physic may have been lacking some height but it more then made up for it with the perfect built. He event thought Hyde made the prefect choice of tattoos, angel wings suited him. With a wistful sigh he wrapped his arms possessively around Hyde and spoke.
“I wish you were all mine.”
Hyde closed his eyes and hugged his lover, but said nothing.
“I wish I met you sooner. But tell me love, would things be any different?”
Hyde lifted his head to look at Gackt, “If I could, I would give up everything for you. And I do belong to you.” His eyes were full of lingering sorrow that caged them both. “No one else has my heart!”
Gackt made a sad smile, “Do you love me?”
Hyde sat up, wincing at the pain shooting up his spine. Gackt frowned “Hey, hey, you should stay still a bit longer or you’ll be sore.” Eve though he was smiling he was serious, he didn’t want Hyde to get hurt.
Hyde shook his head. “Saying those three words, such simple words, seems to diminish the meaning of my feelings for you because those words are not strong enough to even begin to describe how much I love you.”
That was enough for Gackt, he pulled his lover back into him embrace, “Not strong enough for me either, but I do love you. I guess I just have to live with the fact that as much as you are perfect we simply aren’t.” As he sadly gave in to destiny once more ha had no idea just how good the news he will get a few days later are going to be.
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In the dead of the night Gackt woke up to someone franticly ringing the door bell. Grimly and grumpily he stormed down stairs to kill whoever it was waking him up.
He yelled, “Who the hell is it?”
From the other side came the voice he just couldn’t stay all that mad at, “It’s me, Hyde.”
He opened the door to let the other in, worried as to what might have happened to have Hyde come to him in such a late hour. As soon as the doors were open and he was face to face with Hyde he noticed his lover was grinning madly. He quickly closed the distance between them and buried his face in Gackt’s chest, wrapping his arms around him.
“What happened? I can tell it’s not bad because you are smiling.”
Hyde looked up at him still grinning, “You won’t believe this, and you won’t believe our luck!”
Gackt raised an eyebrow as he shut the door; he took a few steps back with his lover still clinging onto him. “Tell me all about it, I’m really curious.”
They walked into the living room, Hyde letting him out of the hug but taking his hand. They sat on the couch and Gackt couldn’t help but smile at his lover’s excitement.
“So? Don’t keep me waiting? Are the news good?”
Hyde nodded. “I love you!”
Gackt smiled, “I love you too. Can you tell me what this is all about because you are really making me nervous.”
“First you have to kiss me and hold me and tell me how I mean to you more then anything in the world.”
Gackt wasn’t the one to disobey such a request; he pulled his lover into his arms and crushed their lips together instantly gaining entrance into Hyde’s mouth. He held the smaller body close to his own, tightly holding it as if his life depended on it. When he broke the kiss he spoke, “You know you mean more to me than anything in the world.”
Their lips were still close, the words spoken Hyde felt as breath on his lips. It made him shiver. He heard and felt Gackt speak again.
“Now tell me the news!”
Hyde nodded, Gackt held grip of his arms above his elbows. Gackt was so much taller then him so his head as raised to meet Gackt’s eyes. He smiled, “I’m getting a divorce!”
For a few second Gackt didn’t know how to react. He thought he was dreaming, he must have, he had this dream before. He stared into Hyde’s eyes waiting to wake up, but he didn’t.
“Really? Are you sure?” He muttered.
Hyde frowned, “Yes I’m sure. Megumi and I talked about this the whole day and a good part of the night. We have decided it will be best to get this marriage over and done with.”
A wide smile spread across Gackt face, in his mind he was thanking whatever higher power brought this upon. “You are getting divorced. You are going to be all mine.”
Hyde nodded with him, both smiling. Gackt started kissing his forehead, his cheeks, his lips, his neck, embracing him ever closer.
It was finally the time for them to be complete.
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Few weeks later the divorce was final and Hyde moved in with Gackt. It was a peaceful divorce; Megumi took the child with more than fair visitation rights to Hyde. Gackt seemed to be in heaven, he was exited about every aspect of their life together. The way he didn’t have to go, the way they didn’t have to count minutes, waking up to see Hyde still blissfully sleeping next to him.
Then one evening while he was cuddling Hyde after sex, he said something pretty blunt, unaware of just how much it would affect Hyde. He didn’t know just how bad Hyde felt about stringing Gackt along for so long.
Gackt kissed Hyde’s forehead and hugged him. He sighed, “I wish I could make you my bride, and have kids with you.” He smiled and nodded off.
But Hyde had a hard time falling asleep. He understood what Gackt meant, or at least thought he did. For so long Gackt had to see him with his family while he was just a dirty secret. He felt horrible about not being able to give Gackt all he wished, he felt bad for having Gackt put up with so much just to be with him.
No, they couldn’t get married and no, he couldn’t give Gackt children. Feeling uneasy, Hyde had trouble falling asleep.
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Over the next months Gackt felt truly happy, everything seemed to be in order; he had his lover by his side and freedom to do as he pleases. No more secrets. He now had Hyde entirely.
That morning Gackt woke up to find Hyde in the bathroom kneeling next to the toilet.
“Are you ok? You look horrible?” He kneeled by his lover’s side and gripped his shoulder.
Hyde shook his head. He shut his eyes and whimpered; second later he was leaning over the toilet again.
“Oh god, did you get food poisoning?” Gackt frowned.
“No, I don’t think so.” Hyde took deep breaths and rested his hand over his mouth.
“Can you get up?”
Hyde nodded, “I don’t think I have any more in me.”
Gackt helped him get up and get to the sink to brush his teeth and wash his face. After he went back to the room, when Hyde came in he gestured him to join him in bed.
“We need to get you to a doctor.”
Hyde shook his head, “I don’t want to go to doctors.”
“I’m not asking, I’m telling you. You have been feeling sick for days, you get dizzy and faint.”
Hyde took his lover hand and kissed his knuckles. “I can’t go. I’m embarrassed.”
Gackt frowned, “What do you mean? If you don’t want me to go with you I’ll wait in the car.”
Hyde smiled lovingly. “Darling, do you love me?”
Gackt raised an eyebrow, confused by the timing of the question. “What does me loving you has to do with the fact that you’ve bee sick for days now?”
But before he could get up in protest of the Hyde avoiding the subject Hyde maneuvered and straddled his leg, sitting in his lap facing him. He smiled and planted soft kisses on Gackt’s lips. “I don’t know how to explain.”
“Just tell me, you are confusing me.”
Hyde bit his lower lip nervously before he spoke. “Don’t think I’m crazy please. You see, um, I think I’m pregnant.”
Gackt didn’t think he was crazy, he thought he was joking. He laughed, it was a good joke. All of Hyde’s symptoms indicated pregnancy. “That is funny.”
With a pout and frown Hyde pushed himself of Gackt’s lap. “Do you really think I’m joking?”
Hyde started walking nervously around the room, every now and there shooting angry glares at Gackt. The silence was stretching out. Gackt felt his heart beat in his throat. Was his lover going mad?
“Honey, be reasonable. You can’t be pregnant.” He got up and caught up with Hyde on the other side of the room. He tried to pull him into his arms but the smaller one protested and tried to push him away. But couldn’t he was swiftly locked in his lover’s embrace. Gackt spoke to him, holding him tightly. “You are a man. I know that very well.”
“Please believe me. I’m not insane, I know it, and I feel it. But I’m pregnant.” Hyde sobbed into his chest.
Gackt sighed and decided to listen and try to figure out what was wrong with his loved one. “Tell me how you came to that conclusion.” He released Hyde from his arms but lead him to a near by chair. He kneeled in front of him and took his hands into his.
Hyde swallowed a lump before he spoke. “It all adds up. Just think about it, I’ve been getting morning sickness, I’ve been fainting and feeling tired all the time. Strong odors make me sick. I know I’m mad to even think that. But I can’t help it.” He paused and bit his lip pulling on it with his teeth. “So I took a pregnancy test just to prove to myself I was wrong and put it out of my mind.”
Wide eyed and freaked out Gackt breathed out; “And?”
“I took seven tests in the last three days.” He looked into Gackt eyes. “They were all positive.”
Gackt mouth literally dropped. “Maybe it’s a mistake!” Yes, it had to be a mistake.
But Hyde shook his head, “Today’s pregnancy tests are very accurate. Plus I took seven of them. There are three more if you want me to take them so I can show you. I didn’t take any today.”
Gackt nodded and followed after Hyde into the bathroom. Out of one drawer Hyde took out a small box and opened it. He showed the pen looking object to Gackt. “This is it.”
A few minutes later Gackt was staring into the small box reading the instructions on in over and over again. Every now and then he would look back at the test. This couldn’t be. It was confirming Hyde’s claims. Gackt looked around the bathroom and noticed Hyde wasn’t in it anymore. He walked back into the room and saw Hyde sitting on the bed hugging a pillow.
“This is for real?” He asked, noting that his hands were trembling.
Hyde nodded, “I’m sorry. But now you see why I can’t go to a doctor.”
Gackt sat by his side. “What do we do? If you are pregnant we really do need to get you to a doctor.”
Hyde shook his head and frowned, “No! They will see me as some sort or a freak of nature and experiment on me!”
“Hyde, I love you. But if you are pregnant, maybe the best and healthiest thing to do is to abort, and for that we will need a doctor.”
“How can you say that?! I am pregnant, you saw the test. Besides you said you wanted to have kids with me.”
Gackt sighed in defeat; he really did wish they could be a family. But this was far from normal and he felt it was far from possible. “And what do we do? Not go to doctors? Even if you bear through your pregnancy, I doubt I need to inform you, you can’t deliver the baby.”
Hyde looked down and shut his eyes. “Then just give us time. We will go to the doctor when I’m well into this pregnancy, if it really is a pregnancy. That way it will be illegal to terminate it. Please!”
“God, I hope you know what you are doing. But this feels so wrong to me.” Gackt stroked Hyde’s hair.
Hyde laid a hand over his belly. “But is feels right to me.”
As days went on through the endlessly slow beat of the pendulum Gackt couldn’t shake the dreadfully feelings of unease. All was wrong. His loved one was a step from having a nervous break down. There was something wrong with him. It couldn’t have been a pregnancy. Gackt was sure he paid just enough attention in school to know for sure men do not bear kids, at least not physically. So he gave into research and found nothing to ease his heart.
Even though Hyde himself doubted he could truly be pregnant it was clear to see he wished he could. The whole situation was making a gap between him and Gackt and he wished he could mend it. But the only was to do so was to give in and go to a doctor. Hyde couldn’t do that. What if he was pregnant? They would make him abort, run test, label him as a freak. And what if doctors showed he really wasn’t pregnant? He knew his heart twisted at the very thought.
After walking into the room to see Hyde petting his slightly swollen belly Gackt could take no more.
“That is it! This is wrong and you know it!” He stormed up to Hyde and pulled the small body roughly into his arms. “No matter how you look at it, it is wrong beyond all counts!”
Hyde found it hard to control his emotions, particularly when the subject of his “might-be child” was brought up. As Gackt glared menacingly into his eyes Hyde felt them water up. “I can’t. Why won’t you understand?”
“I love you!” Gackt gripped Hyde’s arms stronger and shook him up a bit. “I love you! And you need help! This is so far from right it has forgotten it’s meaning.” He loosened up his grasp and hugged his now sobbing lover. “You already have a child. Not with me but it is your child. We can adopt or something. But I can’t let you hurt yourself.”
Gackt kissed the top of messy black hair as he ran his fingers through it. “It could be a cancer or something. It could be a nervous break down. No matter what it is, the longer we wait the harder it will be to save you from it. To save you from yourself.”
Hyde nodded against Gackt chest. He knew there was reason in his words. “Can you call and make an appointment for me?”
“For us. We are going together.”
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The next day the two paid a visit to Hyde’s doctor. Hyde felt too embarrassed to even talk. Gackt sighed and took the initiative.
“He is displaying almost every symptom of pregnancy but we all know that can’t be so.”
Doctor looked at Gackt who was keeping his eyes on his lover and Hyde who was looking at the floor. “I’m not sure we all know.”
He collected some papers, “We will take you blood, urine and send you to a few tests. It could be a physical problem. Very real. Most likely cancer.”
Both Hyde and Gackt looked up with wide eyes.
“But it might as well not be. I will see you two tomorrow and discus with you the results.” He showed them out of his office and handed Hyde over to a nurse who took him to get his blood and the rest.
Both deadly quiet for the rest of the day, Hyde and Gackt took it to simply holding each other in silent comfort. Gackt was sure it couldn’t have been anything that bad. He just knew it.
Sitting in the doctor’s office the following day, Hyde felt his world crumbling so he held onto Gackt.
“I invited a colleague of mine to join us later on. I’m glad to say it’s not cancer or anything like that.”
Gackt and Hyde both sighed in relief. Gackt spoke, “But what is it?” He felt Hyde tense up next to him.
“Pseudocyesis. Or in simple terms false or hysterical pregnancy.” Doctor took a deep breath and sighed. “This does not happen very often. Not to mention in males.”
Hyde swallowed a lump. “So it’s a psychological problem?”
“Yes. It is. And it’s easily taken care of.” Doctor got up and led Hyde to the other side of his office where he instructed him to lay on an examination table and lift his shirt. “I will show you that you are in fact not pregnant as I was instructed to by my colleague. We will do an ultrasound.”
It was true. Hyde felt like crying. There was nothing in him. He had imagined it all. On the other side of the office Gackt sat in silence feeling incredibly guilty.
Later on when the therapist came and explained to them how and why pseudocyesis came about Gackt felt even worse. Hyde seemed to be taking it well. After he got over the initial shock he felt somewhat relieved by all.
When they arrived home Gackt finally found it in him to speak. “I’m so sorry!”
Hyde looked back at him. “Why?”
“This is all my fault. If I hadn’t made you feel guilty, first about being married and later on about the fact that we could never have a family together none of this would have happened. Please forgive me.”
Hyde walked over to him and snuggled himself against his chest. “It’s not your fault. Thinking back, it was very foolish. I just feel so stupid.”
Gackt smiled and hugged his little lover. “When is your first appointment with the therapist?”
“Next week. He said that later on you might need to come with me.”
“I will darling. I’ll do anything.”
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Heating up while making out with Gackt was just too easy and came so very fast. It didn’t take Hyde very long to start moaning and begging. Gackt merly found it amusing. He still wasn’t up to just going on as if nothing happened.
He pushed Hyde down of himself and leaned over him. “Maybe we should wait a bit.”
Hyde bit his lip. He knew all too well just how kinky Gackt liked to get. And within his personal arsenal he now held just the right stuff. “Really? Well I think I know something you will like.”
Gackt smirked. “You do?”
Hyde purred and arched his back, exposing his chest further to his lover. “Lick me!” He moaned. “My chest, lick my nipples.”
“Who am I to disobey?” Gackt grinned and leaned down. He pressed his hot tongue against Hyde’s erect nipple. Hyde threw his head back and moaned. He breathed “Suck!”
Gackt couldn’t believe it. He looked up at Hyde. “You mean? No way!”
Hyde wriggled impatiently. “Just do it!”
“Your wish is my command!”
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Word from Dana: Well if you can't guess what that last part was about you really don't know me very well... Feel free to ask if you are not shy! X3
So that is it my sweethearts, I shall not be doing any more mpreg and that is it! It wall take an awful lot to convince me to write any more mpreg. Really! I mean it this time!
So this had all: angst, fluff, kinky pr0n, mpreg(kinda).... I fooled ya there! Hahahaha!!!!
If you comment I'll share my chocolate pretzels with you!!! No flame if possible... It's hot enough as it is.