Title: Understanding
Rating: NC-17
Author: Dana (me)
Warning: yaoi, mpreg, crack, none beta
Pairing: Reita x Saga
Fandom: Jrock, gazette, alice nine
Disclaimer: I own nothing but my own insanity, and I make no money with this... or in any other way... >_>
Author's note: ZOMG! Saga pregy & very, very special! Poor Reita...
Plot: After a drunken night Reita still wants to make it work with Saga. He is given a chance, but a few week s into their relationship Reita learns of his lover's shocking secret...
Word from Dana: Should there be some smut in coming chapters?
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The first trimester was coming to an end much to Saga’s fortune. It was really rough on him. The sickness, the nausea, the faintness and shooting cramps were far more unpleasant than he ever could have predicted. He just had his last check up for the first trimester and he and Reita were driving back to his apartment. Saga was sleepy and nodding off when Reita pulled over.
“Are we there?”
“Yeah. Listen, we need to work something out.” Reita sounded serious and it scared Saga.
“About what?”
“This is really tiring. Either you will move to my apartment or I will move to yours.”
Saga smiled, he did want to talk about that with Reita but whenever he got around to it his own body would turn on him. “You should move your things to my home. It’s closer to the clinic.”
Reita grinned “I’ll do that today.”
Once the doors of the elevator closed Reita took Saga into his arms. Lately he’s been in need, he understood Saga was feeling ill most of the time but he was bothered that over the last few days they couldn’t even make out in peace. He wanted to ask Saga about sex and just how things worked with this body but he felt extremely awkward about it. He figured he would find out anyways as soon and Saga’s libido got the best of him. He mental thank the old doctor when he told him Saga will be going pretty much in heat during the second trimester.
But to Reita the time seemed to move too slowly. He loved Saga; he yearned for him, he desired all. It was like that even before he learned that Saga is special but as time went on he was getting frustrated.
Luckily Saga was hungrily kissing him as soon as Reita took him into his arms. He was happy they would finally live together. Saga’s hands wrapped themselves around Reita one over his shoulder and one around his waist. He pressed his body closely against Reita’s and he moaned into the other mouth. They fit together so perfectly. Reita held him almost like a woman, probably because he subconsciously saw Saga as somewhat of a woman, and Saga loved it. He melted into Reita’s embrace but soon the kiss broke and the bell notified them they were at their floor.
Reita practically pulled Saga by the hand to the apartment and Saga found it amusing how Reita had trouble unlocking the front door. Once inside and doors closed the two went back to exchanging intimate touches. Saga moaned and threw his head back as Reita attacked his neck with kisses and soft bites. Reita was really in need and Saga knew it, he really didn’t want this much but he did want to give Reita something. And Reita wanted him.
He could tell by the way Reita’s hands quickly started touching him, caressing him, grabbing everything they got to. Clumsily they fumbled over the couch and Reita claimed Saga’s lips again. He loved the fact that there were no fights for dominance whenever they kissed. Saga gave himself full allowing Reita’s tongue to explore him. But this kiss had in it so much hunger. Reita’s mind was getting cloudy with lust; he had been waiting too long. He thought back on all the times Saga teased him, flaunting his skin, allowing Reita to touch him just enough to set every vein in his body on fire and then pull away. It was driving him crazy.
Saga moaned, he wasn’t used to Reita kissing him in such violent way, even if he did experience it before. When the kiss broke Saga breathed a plea for Reita to slow down but it was ignored, Reita took it as just more teasing. Saga couldn’t bring himself to want the touch, he was frigid and he couldn’t help it. But still he tried to just let Reita take what he needed and he calmed his anxiety.
He didn’t protest when Reita took off his shirt and tossed it aside, he felt Reita’s arousal pressed against his thigh. Reita was kissing his neck again when he felt it, he was getting sick.
“Reita stop.” He breathed and tangled his fingers in Reita’s hair trying to pull him away and get his attention. It had little effect. Reita merely groaned and made his way down Saga’s chest.
“Stop please, I’m gonna be sick.”
Reita stopped and moved away from Saga, but not because Saga asked him to. He licked and kissed his way down to Saga’s belly and there he felt it. Was his belly already getting bigger? Do babies grow that fast? He looked at Saga who was still sprawled on the couch, he was panting, not from excitement but in pain.
Saga thanked him for stopping and sat up. Reita kneeled on the floor in front of Saga; he extended his arm and placed it on Saga’s belly.
“I think your belly grew a bit.”
Saga looked down at Reita’s hand. “Yeah I noticed that too, it’s not much so far, barely visible. Listen, I’m sorry. I just can’t do this yet. Ever if I want to my body protests.”
“It’s alright. My fault. I should wait.” He smiled up at Saga.
“Thank you.” Saga leaned forward and kissed Reita’s forehead. “It shouldn’t be too long now.”
Reita blushed. “I’ve been trying to ask you, how is it that it works for you. You know, down there.”
Saga couldn’t help but smile “I already told you I have both male and female genitalia.”
“So you have a” Reita was still blushing
“Yes, I do have the female sex. Do I need to draw you a picture or would you rather I show you.”
Reita grinned “I think I’d go for the second. But better not, I might loose control and ravish you. I need to cool off and wait.”
“Speaking of cooling off, I need a shower. You should go get your stuff and bring them here.”
“Yeah, I’ll be back soon.” Reita got up and gave Saga’s lips a haste kiss before he left.
Saga bit his lower lip as he though about sex with Reita, maybe he wasn’t as frigid as he though, it was just because his body was giving him so much trouble lately. About a month ago he would have jumped at the idea of sex with Reita. He got into the shower and let warm water trickle down his body. He though that maybe he should have told Reita all about himself from the start. After all Reita seemed ready for sex with him, he wasn’t disgusted or anything like that.
He thought back on all the times ha had to pull himself out of Reita’s arms before things went too far. The remembered how he would come back home and cooled off in the shower. After Reita took the virginity of his female part Saga found himself more acceptant of it. For the first time he actually considered it in a sexual way, before it was more like a bothersome necessity that bleed out every month, a secret.
But with Reita, it was all different. He found out he got aroused there as well and it felt good. A few times after he had sex with Reita he actually touched himself, masturbated. The first time he did it he couldn’t believe himself. He was reluctant, but soon found out just how much he liked having that one part stimulated. And now as water ran down his body he ghosted a finger over it, smiling and thinking how he couldn’t wait to be ready to give himself to Reita. He so wanted to feel Reita inside him again.
Reita found that he was a bit too distracted while packing. He kept thinking about Saga, but not sex. He kept thinking about the baby. He found himself smiling and feeling warmth in the idea of parenthood. It was fascinating, the idea of life growing inside of his lover. He grinned while thinking about the fact that near the end of the third month he could see a small lump, just a subtle indication that the baby was growing. Just thinking how big it will get amused and frightened him at the same time. It will be tough for Saga to get trough it. He remembered seeing graphics in the clinic that showed baby’s progress though months. But not thinking about his current task was becoming troublesome and he shook his head trying to clear it.
The phone rang and it was Ruki.
“Lately it’s a miracle to catch you at home. Was it plastic surgery that separated you from Saga’s hip?” Ruki asked as joke.
“Just because I like spending time with my lover doesn’t mean I can’t exist away from him.” He answered to Ruki and knocked over a lamp as he was trying to pack and talk to Ruki at the same time.
“The hell are you doing?” Ruki asked at the noise the lamp made.
“Packing. I’m moving to Saga’s place.”
“Isn’t it a bit too soon for that? You two should slow down. Whatever burns fast, quickly burns out.”
Reita snorted “You’ve been eating the fortune cookies again. Eh?”
“I resent that! I’m just giving you a friendly advice. Besides, haven’t you been spending every waking hour there, don’t tell me you didn’t notice. I can understand that a couple doesn’t see each other often and want to live together to be closer.”
“We’ll because I spend so much time with him, I’m moving there. It’s troublesome to have to come here every once in a while. Beside, he needs my help and support. And I feel the need to have him close by so that I can take care of him and know that he is alright.”
Ruki looked so dumbfounded that Uruha who was with him had to wave a hand in front of his face to snap him back.
“Man, are you feeling alright? Can you run that statement by me again? Help, support, care? What the hell?”
Reita bit his tongue; it just came to him again. He was keeping a secret from his friends. He was keeping something he was happy about from his friends. How was he going to explain all this to them?
“Saga isn’t feeling well so I’m taking care of him.”
“Oh, so he is sick. I guess I understand then. Wait a second.” Ruki had to calm down Uruha who was pulling on his sleeve asking what was wrong, why he looked so shocked. He was being childish. Reita heard Ruki tell off Uruha and smiled. He really wanted to share his current situation with his friends.
He heard Ruki talk to Uruha as if talking to an annoying child “Saga sick, Reita moving to his apartment to take care of him. Stop pulling my sleeve.”
Uruha yelped “Ah~ poor Saga, is he ok? Reita sent my love to him.” He was being louder to make sure Reita heard him.
“Ruki tell Uruha I’ll do so. I have to go now.”
Ruki gave the message to Uruha and before the line broke Reita heard Ruki offering to buy Uruha candy in a very mock tone, probably emphasizing the fact that Uruha was behaving like a child.
Distractedly Reita though about the parenting itself, not the pregnancy that now took over most of his thoughts. He wondered if he was going to be a good father. It suddenly came to him that the child might blame him for a lot of things in its life, and how difficult it will be to explain to the child that its mommy is a man. Saga said that they could just tell the child it was adopted and when it grows to be old enough to understand they could tell the truth. It seemed fairly reasonable, but Reita didn’t want his child to think it was someone else’s. And he doubted Saga was thrilled with the idea, it was more like a hail mary pass.
They will need to find a way to explain this all to his friends. Saga’s band mates already knew all about Saga’s unique condition and were informed of Saga’s pregnancy. At first they were reluctant to rejoice but quickly got warmed up to the idea. They would come over and shower Saga with care and concern. They were happy and Shou once commented that they were all going to be uncles so they have to help out. Reita was surprised the others knew about Saga. When he asked Saga about it he simply told him it would be fairly difficult to keep something like that from the people he spent most of his time with. He was right.
He really felt bad about not letting his band mates join in. The times Saga’s band mates came over were fun. It gave a feeling of normality, and he wanted to let his friends in on that. But would they understand? He figured Uruha would be exited about it no matter the abnormal aspects. And Kai is always understanding of pretty much everything. He had no idea as to how Aoi and Ruki might react.
On his way back to Saga’s home he kept trying to think of a way to explain it all without it coming back to bite him. When he came home Saga was watching the TV and eating a pudding. He sat by his side and gave him a soft kiss.
“You taste like vanilla.”
Saga smiled and offered a spoon full of pudding to Reita, which he gladly accepted.
Reita grinned “You should eat less sweets or the child will be born with one hell of a sweet tooth. And then some dentist will get rich off us. Plus you will get fat.”
Saga grabbed a pillow from his side and smacked Reita on the head. “I will get fat because of the baby!”
“Yeah, yeah, I know. I was just kidding.” He took the pillow from Saga before he got hit again.
Saga pouted “The doctor said I should eat whatever I feel like having.”
“I know.” Reita took Saga in his arms and sighed.
Saga didn’t want to break the embrace so he awkwardly extended his arm to place the pudding on the coffee table.
“How are we going to tell my friends?” Reita asked caressing Saga’s hair.
“I don’t know. Let’s think of a way.” Saga sighed.
“How did you tell yours?”
Saga grinned “About two days after we found out I’m pregnant I went to the studio, there Shou offered me a beer and I said I can’t drink. He asked me why and I told him.”
“I don’t mean that. How did you tell them you have the girly part?”
Saga laughed at the way Reita still felt weird about calling “it” by “its” name. “Well I figured who would be the most acceptant of it. So I told Shou all about it. I even had to show him.” He giggled “His face was red like a traffic light.”
“Be serious. This is important.”
“Fine. After I told Shou about it I had him on my side, that made telling others about it easier cause I wasn’t alone and they felt easier seeing how someone already coped with it.”
“We’ll do it your way.” Reita reached for his phone. “Uruha sends his love to you; I told Ruki you’re sick.”
“Oh, how sweet. Thank him for me!” Saga snuggled closer to Reita.
“You can thank him yourself, I’ll call him over.” He opened his phone and called Uruha’s number. “Time to traumatize Uruha.”
“Don’t say it like that” Saga reached for another pillow but had it taken out of his hand before he could hit Reita again.
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So~ Do we let them get laid? really don't see how that could be bad compared to the fact that this fic has a prey guy in it... ^_^'
click here to see the ReitaxSaga graphics I made Not sure how soon the next chapy will be ready. Poor Uruha. X) This will be hard to write. I'm feeling lonely, can you go to my profile and give me a hug?
Please comment!!! <3