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I have been listening to all this old music from freshman and sophmore year. (I found my cd case and there are about twenty unlabelled blank cds I've been going through). It makes me think of where I was then. I sometimes wonder if I am any further towards my true self than I was then.
I am really having doubts about going to college. Why can't I just get a job and live my life as I want to? I don't know what I am working towards, so its a waste of money, and not even all my money. Its really not worth it. But no one will listen to me and discuss it intelligently without calling me stupid. I can do what I am doing now, I don't need to go to college right away.
What is wrong with me? I don't even know how to explain what I am feeling right now.
ps: I painted today for the first time in months.