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Well I can't say that today totally improved my life situation any because I started the day with thinking about a phone call I never got. Not because I didn't pick it up or because I missed it, it was because they never called me back. I'm really fighting motivation this week because of many factors in my life that are starting to depress me again as I think I was gaining a little bit of focus. CCS hasn't decided to send me new financial aid paperwork even tho I sent them a revised fafsa over three weeks ago. Today I had time to think about my project that I just finished and how so many things didn't go how I wanted them to. In the end I felt like I failed and that's not what I need to feel like to get out of my current emotional state. It doesn't seem like my work was as well taken as it usually is and no one had the testicles to say it. What am I some kind of nearly untouchable whackjob? I'm not that good ppl and not that formidable. To be terribly cliche, I'm feeling like I'm on the outside looking in again. I haven't felt so confused about where my work and life should go from here in a long time. My inspiration is gone as others are getting theirs and I feel so mentally dry. Every day I try to find motivations for what I'm doing and why I even started down this road in the first place.
Today I rented a film titled Shopgirl that is based on a novella by Steve Martin. It was one of those less than touching romantic comedies. I'd like to gently remind people like steve martin that not all artists are starving and struggling to get out from under their student loan debts, so how about we just rewrite this film to be about a female artist that's making her bills on time and she's successful. Not all of us artists are failures, just those steeped in mediocrity and lack of motivation. My sister has an art degree and is NOT struggling under debt and she's doing quite well. She can make hundreds of dollars at a time when she has the ability to sell things. Wake up all you stupid artists that think thomas kincade is the way to go. Landscapes and nudes have ALL BEEN DONE... I have no sympathy for you......go hump your cat. People who make war protest work just to get attn......go hump your cat as well. At least it will get some joy out of the work, u've done.
Well I can't say that today totally improved my life situation any because I started the day with thinking about a phone call I never got. Not because I didn't pick it up or because I missed it, it was because they never called me back. I'm really fighting motivation this week because of many factors in my life that are starting to depress me again as I think I was gaining a little bit of focus. CCS hasn't decided to send me new financial aid paperwork even tho I sent them a revised fafsa over three weeks ago. Today I had time to think about my project that I just finished and how so many things didn't go how I wanted them to. In the end I felt like I failed and that's not what I need to feel like to get out of my current emotional state. It doesn't seem like my work was as well taken as it usually is and no one had the testicles to say it. What am I some kind of nearly untouchable whackjob? I'm not that good ppl and not that formidable. To be terribly cliche, I'm feeling like I'm on the outside looking in again. I haven't felt so confused about where my work and life should go from here in a long time. My inspiration is gone as others are getting theirs and I feel so mentally dry. Every day I try to find motivations for what I'm doing and why I even started down this road in the first place.
Today I rented a film titled Shopgirl that is based on a novella by Steve Martin. It was one of those less than touching romantic comedies. I'd like to gently remind people like steve martin that not all artists are starving and struggling to get out from under their student loan debts, so how about we just rewrite this film to be about a female artist that's making her bills on time and she's successful. Not all of us artists are failures, just those steeped in mediocrity and lack of motivation. My sister has an art degree and is NOT struggling under debt and she's doing quite well. She can make hundreds of dollars at a time when she has the ability to sell things. Wake up all you stupid artists that think thomas kincade is the way to go. Landscapes and nudes have ALL BEEN DONE... I have no sympathy for you......go hump your cat. People who make war protest work just to get attn......go hump your cat as well. At least it will get some joy out of the work, u've done.