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I'm honestly not sure how much more of this I can take. It's getting so hard to deal with this stuff...
I just don't understand people. I could really never be deliberately mean to someone or just treat someone like nothing, and not have it bother me. But I guess everyone's different.
Really, I don't believe that I'm that bad of a person. So, why does everyone seem to think it's okay to treat me like that? I can only take so much of it. And I think I've hit that limit.
I wish someone would tell me if there was honestly something really screwed up with me, or if I was a bad person. Seriously. Because I try to be my nicest...try...but it doesn't stop people from treating me like shit.
Whatever. I don't mean to go on and on about it but it hurts to have these people taking me for granted constantly. It's NOT okay to do that to people. I have feelings, just like everyone else and I'm getting so tired of being treated like this.
I am so terrified of being alone. And that's what I've been feeling for the longest time. I wish someone would give me a chance. But maybe, asking for love is way too much to ask for.
That's all I want though. I'm not asking for the world. I don't need to have all the attention a person can give. I just want someone to love me. That is ALL I'm asking for. And it really hurts knowing that I'm not going to get it...
I would open up my heart to that right person. I just need to find that right person first, and feel that they are for real. But no one seems to want to get to know me that well. I always end up being the "friend," or that person that people know they can get certain things from.
I don't want to cry over this anymore.