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where to start? who knows. things haven't been that great lately...kinda emo, but not that pathetic kind of emo...my own personal version of it. the kind that no one sees. Guess I prefer it that way or something...
I don't really know. And I'm trying my best to act like things are okay...cuz I'm pretty sure, in the scheme of things, they're not that bad. I feel bad for putting my mom off like I have been. I just can't seem to make her understand that I'm not gonna talk about what's bothering me. Then, she gets mad that I don't talk and yet another fight begins...
maybe it's cuz I'm alone. my biggest fear. or maybe it's because I'm coming to the realization that I'm obviously not interesting anyone around me. not to sound hopeless. I can cope with the fact that no one is attracted to me...life goes on.
and this whole emo thing is just not my style...going against everything that I believe. so I'm seriously hoping I can just get past this and move the fuck on..do what I always do. I wish people wouldn't get mad at me for keeping things in all the time..im sry i just cant seem to do that whole talking about shit thing. oh well
"Have you ever felt so alone? But the tears won't spill out of your eyes.
How you ever wanted to say, that you're having a really fucked up day. But the words won't come out and no one wants to listen anyway.
You've given up looking to find, the answers to the questions in your life. Because you know they won't solve the problem on your mind.
Have you ever felt so alone?"
So, yeah. It sucks but life goes on. No use complaining about shit that isn't going to change.
Peace.