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Where to begin....
I don't even know. Last night was probably the shittiest night I've had in a long time.
What pisses me off the most is that I can't even think of any words to describe what I'm feeling...hmph
I know something's not right between Aaron and I, because I still feel alone even though I'm with him. Somethings not right, seems to be the usual.
I am just so sick of my life changing right beneath my feet. It's ridiculous how my mom thinks its okay to tell me I'm moving in with my grandma after school gets out for the summer, and she doens't even bother to consult me. It just is and there's nothing I can do about it.
Everything is fucked up right now, and I was thinking it'd be nice to have someone to talk to but I can never open up my stupid fucking mouth to talk about things.
Then it's always about how everyone else has a huge crush on this person, or how they can't stop thinking about this person, and blah blah blah. Lucky them. Really. I am happy for those people but hell yes I am jealous. I would give anything to have a guy that thinks about me all the time. A person whos thoughts I occupy all the time because they like me so much.
It's not like that with Aaron and it never has been, and it never will be.
But I love the kid so much. So, it'd hard to let go of those feelings.
Enough ranting. I feel stupid enough as it is explaining my damn emotions on fucking live journal.
Peace.
I don't even know. Last night was probably the shittiest night I've had in a long time.
What pisses me off the most is that I can't even think of any words to describe what I'm feeling...hmph
I know something's not right between Aaron and I, because I still feel alone even though I'm with him. Somethings not right, seems to be the usual.
I am just so sick of my life changing right beneath my feet. It's ridiculous how my mom thinks its okay to tell me I'm moving in with my grandma after school gets out for the summer, and she doens't even bother to consult me. It just is and there's nothing I can do about it.
Everything is fucked up right now, and I was thinking it'd be nice to have someone to talk to but I can never open up my stupid fucking mouth to talk about things.
Then it's always about how everyone else has a huge crush on this person, or how they can't stop thinking about this person, and blah blah blah. Lucky them. Really. I am happy for those people but hell yes I am jealous. I would give anything to have a guy that thinks about me all the time. A person whos thoughts I occupy all the time because they like me so much.
It's not like that with Aaron and it never has been, and it never will be.
But I love the kid so much. So, it'd hard to let go of those feelings.
Enough ranting. I feel stupid enough as it is explaining my damn emotions on fucking live journal.
Peace.