friends
i dont think ive ever appreciated my group of friends as much as i do now. they are my real family. i would do anything for them, and i know they would do anything for me. since ive been living in Orange County ive grown to miss my friends so much. I still have yet to meet someone up here who wouldnt stab me in the back to get what they want. there are a few ive met that have potential, but i havent gotten to know them enough to be able to say just yet. people up here are soooooo fake it makes me sick. i have a lot of issues with most of the people up here that have just come to a head recently. i watch them act like they are best friends when around eachother, then when they are apart all you hear is shit talking. its so hard for me to handle cause my friends arent like that. we RESPECT eachother. i havent been able to tell if its cause i live in OC or if its cause these people are just shady. all i know is that i have realized that i can not open up or get close to anyone here cause i know it will come back to bite me in the ass. sometimes its realy hard being a people watcher, sometimes i wish i just didnt see all the shit i see. but i am glad i do cause if not a lot more people whould have taken advantage of me. i just wish sara could see all the fakness around her. i dont like to see her get hurt.