Me+being single for a month=uh oh
Yeah its been like a month and I've been single the whole time...and its been...great
Whoa did I just say that? Yeah I think I did. Whats happening? Satan is selling snow cones for sure.
Its not that bad. Well at least not yet...I mean I get times where I'm lonely and I just want someone there to cuddle with...but I don't want someone just for that reason. I want something true and something that will last. If thats even possible anymore.
I have decided that I'm no longer cynical...I'm putting everything behind me. No more...fuck love, fuck trust, fuck boys, fuck relationships. I'm 20...I've been in relationships since I was in 7th grade...of course love or lust is going to hurt. But you eventually realize after getting hurt so many times that its part of life...and maybe life would be boring without that. I'll never know. But I do know that if I give up now...I may never know what potential I have at finding someone that I really need...not just want. Just because some other little relationships didn't work and I had my heart broken doesn't mean everyone else out there is out to get me. And...if I get asked out on a date I need to go...I've been avoiding those lately...but thats what I need to do. Just date for fun...a date doesn't mean marrage.
And just because I miss you....doesn't mean you miss me too...and that doesn't give me a guarantee to be with you either. If we were meant to be then we'll be...I'm not waiting around.
Who knows what is in store for us...
Maybe I'll fall in love and someone will be there to catch me.
Maybe I'll be single forever. *with all my animals*
But whatever I am happy with me...I'm happy with my friends and I'm happy with what I am doing right now. I'm 20...I have a lot of time left...I don't have to rush through life.
Love doesn't fix everything...just b/c you are in love doesn't mean you have a guarantee for everything. Love works and sometimes love sucks. Just depends on who you are and who you are with. I'm happy to see people in love and happy...and I hope it works. But if it doesn't it doesn't mean everything is over...just means you have to start all over again. Which sucks..but in the end everything is ok.
And if you expect nothing you won't be disappointed.
And tomorrow I'll probably be back to my...fuck love mode...but at least I'm happy for now. Right?
Whoa did I just say that? Yeah I think I did. Whats happening? Satan is selling snow cones for sure.
Its not that bad. Well at least not yet...I mean I get times where I'm lonely and I just want someone there to cuddle with...but I don't want someone just for that reason. I want something true and something that will last. If thats even possible anymore.
I have decided that I'm no longer cynical...I'm putting everything behind me. No more...fuck love, fuck trust, fuck boys, fuck relationships. I'm 20...I've been in relationships since I was in 7th grade...of course love or lust is going to hurt. But you eventually realize after getting hurt so many times that its part of life...and maybe life would be boring without that. I'll never know. But I do know that if I give up now...I may never know what potential I have at finding someone that I really need...not just want. Just because some other little relationships didn't work and I had my heart broken doesn't mean everyone else out there is out to get me. And...if I get asked out on a date I need to go...I've been avoiding those lately...but thats what I need to do. Just date for fun...a date doesn't mean marrage.
And just because I miss you....doesn't mean you miss me too...and that doesn't give me a guarantee to be with you either. If we were meant to be then we'll be...I'm not waiting around.
Who knows what is in store for us...
Maybe I'll fall in love and someone will be there to catch me.
Maybe I'll be single forever. *with all my animals*
But whatever I am happy with me...I'm happy with my friends and I'm happy with what I am doing right now. I'm 20...I have a lot of time left...I don't have to rush through life.
Love doesn't fix everything...just b/c you are in love doesn't mean you have a guarantee for everything. Love works and sometimes love sucks. Just depends on who you are and who you are with. I'm happy to see people in love and happy...and I hope it works. But if it doesn't it doesn't mean everything is over...just means you have to start all over again. Which sucks..but in the end everything is ok.
And if you expect nothing you won't be disappointed.
And tomorrow I'll probably be back to my...fuck love mode...but at least I'm happy for now. Right?