OK IVE HAD IT
who tells other people about my fucking insecurities ESPECIALLY that girl???? what the fuck. all i want to do is cry right now...that made it soo damn obvious they talk. i cant handle this shit anymore.
It one damn girl after another and everyday i look more and more dumb. everyday i find out more and more shit. i dont get it. i dont. I dont date hot guys for this fucking reason. I dont want this shit. i hate stupid girls. i dont want to date the guy girls throw themselves all over. im not dealing with it. i know thats a stupid reason i know it is. Thats just how ive been for as long as i can remember. I cnat help that i have the BIGGEST fear of being cheated on or left for someone better. I cant stand the thought of divorce and you know what??? this fear is going to keep me from getting married. im 27 its getting to late, ill marry the guy that gets me over this fear...hot or not hot.
Wanna know why im so damn weird?? youd think id be all excited when i hear that hes hot...oh no im not. i get all scared and freaked out. damn am i REALLY that insecure??? i need to leave him alone and just let him do his thing without me freaking out on him all the damn time. this isnt a real relationship. i cant control the other girls and him and what he does. it fucking sucks to hear about it and im so weird i HAVE to hear about it. i want to know everything even if it will kill me. maybe some things are better left unsaid. then when i dont talk to him i get all paranoid hes spending the time he was talking to me talking to someone else. so then i get all sad and then im afraid hell just be around someone like his sec all day and they will just get close and hell like her without realizing its happening. but fuck. i guess thats what happens with hot guys. THATS WHY I DONT FUCKING DATE THEM. thanks.
It one damn girl after another and everyday i look more and more dumb. everyday i find out more and more shit. i dont get it. i dont. I dont date hot guys for this fucking reason. I dont want this shit. i hate stupid girls. i dont want to date the guy girls throw themselves all over. im not dealing with it. i know thats a stupid reason i know it is. Thats just how ive been for as long as i can remember. I cnat help that i have the BIGGEST fear of being cheated on or left for someone better. I cant stand the thought of divorce and you know what??? this fear is going to keep me from getting married. im 27 its getting to late, ill marry the guy that gets me over this fear...hot or not hot.
Wanna know why im so damn weird?? youd think id be all excited when i hear that hes hot...oh no im not. i get all scared and freaked out. damn am i REALLY that insecure??? i need to leave him alone and just let him do his thing without me freaking out on him all the damn time. this isnt a real relationship. i cant control the other girls and him and what he does. it fucking sucks to hear about it and im so weird i HAVE to hear about it. i want to know everything even if it will kill me. maybe some things are better left unsaid. then when i dont talk to him i get all paranoid hes spending the time he was talking to me talking to someone else. so then i get all sad and then im afraid hell just be around someone like his sec all day and they will just get close and hell like her without realizing its happening. but fuck. i guess thats what happens with hot guys. THATS WHY I DONT FUCKING DATE THEM. thanks.