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So today at work my boss's soon to be step daughter was there with us. She's 4. I know it sounds weird cos everyone thinks I'm this hateful person: but I'm good with kids. They like me and I know how to make them feel included so that they feel less like "the kid" and more like "a friend."
It hurt though cos it just reminded me of how much I want a kid someday. And how good of a parent I think I could be. And that I will probably never have kids.
I know I'm only 19, and I blame it on my family for getting married and having kids so early: but damnit, I want to fall in love. Scratch that, I want to fall in love and have that person love me back. I'm getting tired of this one sided hopelessly pining after someone thing that constantly happens to me. I'm not saying I want to find that one "forever" person right now. I'm just saying I want a taste of that. I want a real relationship and I think I'd be good at that too.
It hurt though cos it just reminded me of how much I want a kid someday. And how good of a parent I think I could be. And that I will probably never have kids.
I know I'm only 19, and I blame it on my family for getting married and having kids so early: but damnit, I want to fall in love. Scratch that, I want to fall in love and have that person love me back. I'm getting tired of this one sided hopelessly pining after someone thing that constantly happens to me. I'm not saying I want to find that one "forever" person right now. I'm just saying I want a taste of that. I want a real relationship and I think I'd be good at that too.