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goodness my birthday is in 2 or 3ish days. 20 freakin 2. where did the time go? i still feel 18 at times, and 85 at others. how did i end up at this person? what were the events that shifted and shaped me? will i ever be ready for the adult world? will i ever quit questioning any and everything? will i ever gain my confidence back? will i ever get over my fears of rejection and judgement? will i ever sing loudly? will i ever pursue lasting friendships? will i ever be the leader i so badly want to be? will these annoying kids next to me ever shut up? seriously whats with the swine flu jokes? will i ever not waste all day long to write one simple paper? will i ever feel the same spiritual longing i once did? will i ever feel much of anything again? i hate this feeling of constant nothingness. seriously these kids are driving me insane. read goofy websites outloud in your bedroom, not the freakin computer lab.