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i just got lost for the first time in this town.
scary.
i was just riding around on my bike, and i guess i took a couple wrong turns, because before i know it, i dont know where the heck i am.
so i was bike riding around, trying to find my way, and i was thinking about my friends back home, among other things.
danielle and megs are up in maine right now. having a kick ass time, bonding x1237891724 and just kicking back. i remember when i was there, exactly a year ago from today.danielle and me and sohayla and megan woonton were sitting on the dock, painting our nails and toe nails pink. somehow we got pink nail polish all over our legs. we were sitting at the end of the dock, waiting for the boys to come over so i could meet them. tony and greg come over to talk to us. they were wearing U.G.L.Y pajama pants and got humped by wiston like, 500 times. hah that dog is to much.
so im not going to got through the whole weekend. as alot of ppl know, it takes about 3 days to tell, all details included.
tommorw will be exactly one year since i got my first kiss..i think.
how pathetic is that? im such a stupid girl to actually remember that.
and in two days its the 23. the 23. for the past couple of months, i hadnt given him a thought on the 23 of them. in april, his birthday, i didnt think of him. in may, nope i didnt think of him then either. and so on. and he didnt even cross my mind when i learned that i was going to be leaving the 23 of july to move here.(that changed later). but now i cant fricken help but think of him. i miss him. i miss the little thing we had that felt so huge to me. and that kind of still feels huge to me. and even though i go through all of the things i dont like about him, and all the stupid things about him that annoy me but made me like him more, and even though i barely know him anymore, i still smile when i think about him. and that awesome weekend.
and andreas is moving. my chance at love here is like, 1 in 100. unless i get a pleasent surprise somewhere around the corner.