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haven't written in this since june 13th. that's intense. but i just started reading all my friends things again so i thought i would update finally...
cameron leaves in about 3 weeks. i guess that's the only information worth posting since it's all i think about all day every day. it's so hard. it's going to be so hard to say goodbye.
for those of you who don't know, i met cam this summer, in may, when we did les mis together at chino community theatre. i am now completely in love with him. i can't explain it, i can't explain how i know that i want to be with him forever. i just know that i do. i have so much fun with him. he's the most amazing guy i've ever met, and ever been lucky enough to be with. the only thing is that he's mormon, and leaves for taiwan in 3 weeks to go on his mission. he'll be gone for 2 years, and the only way to communicate is going to be through letters...FOR TWO YEARS.
so you may be thinking, 'Fuck that...why would anyone wait that long to be with someone else?', but it's not that easy. i can't just walk away from these feelings i have for him. i'm not even really interested in dating anyone else, cause no one will get me like cameron does, no one will make me as happy, no one will make me laugh as much. i will never be that comfortable with anyone again. he wants me to date. well doesn't want me to, but doesn't want to stop me from doing it. but i just don't want to.
i just want to hibernate for two years, until he's back and we can be together again. i never thought i would feel this way EVER.
in other news, i'm working at disneyland and i'm very bipolar about the job. some days i absolutely hate it, others i love it to death. i applied at cheesecake factory thought cause i'm not making enough money...
i moved out of my mom's house in august. i'm now living in placentia but it will soon be fullerton cause we got kicked out of our apartments and are moving into a duplex soon. i'm living with two awesome girls, amanda weiss and ali solis.
that's about it, happy saturday everyone!
cameron leaves in about 3 weeks. i guess that's the only information worth posting since it's all i think about all day every day. it's so hard. it's going to be so hard to say goodbye.
for those of you who don't know, i met cam this summer, in may, when we did les mis together at chino community theatre. i am now completely in love with him. i can't explain it, i can't explain how i know that i want to be with him forever. i just know that i do. i have so much fun with him. he's the most amazing guy i've ever met, and ever been lucky enough to be with. the only thing is that he's mormon, and leaves for taiwan in 3 weeks to go on his mission. he'll be gone for 2 years, and the only way to communicate is going to be through letters...FOR TWO YEARS.
so you may be thinking, 'Fuck that...why would anyone wait that long to be with someone else?', but it's not that easy. i can't just walk away from these feelings i have for him. i'm not even really interested in dating anyone else, cause no one will get me like cameron does, no one will make me as happy, no one will make me laugh as much. i will never be that comfortable with anyone again. he wants me to date. well doesn't want me to, but doesn't want to stop me from doing it. but i just don't want to.
i just want to hibernate for two years, until he's back and we can be together again. i never thought i would feel this way EVER.
in other news, i'm working at disneyland and i'm very bipolar about the job. some days i absolutely hate it, others i love it to death. i applied at cheesecake factory thought cause i'm not making enough money...
i moved out of my mom's house in august. i'm now living in placentia but it will soon be fullerton cause we got kicked out of our apartments and are moving into a duplex soon. i'm living with two awesome girls, amanda weiss and ali solis.
that's about it, happy saturday everyone!