Hmmm...
I don't really know what to say. This happens to me alot. I write in my journal for a long time, with so many thoughts and emotions going on inside of me, but I can't decide what I want to put online for everyone to see. I think I have these difficulties because I feel that the level of importance that these thoughts hold for me is significantly higher than the level for everyone else. That and I probably just don't want to post about it to an unresponsive online journal, plus only a select few people would care at all, and if you are one of those people then I've probably already talked to you about everything.
Basically, the past couple days have been... odd. Wednesday and Thursday were hard to get through. This weekend has been okay. I got to spend time with my favorite little Jew, and Stephen has been keeping me company as well. I miss Lee alot, but I really do think that this is helping me. I think that a weekend with the boys is exactly what he needed, and spending a weekend at home with my family and friends was a good idea. I just wish I could know when I will see him again.
I pray it is Tuesday.
Please, oh please let it be Tuesday.
I am successfully continuing to believe that it will probably be another week before I see him...
but, wow Tuesday would be perfect.
My hair is getting really long.
This week, I feel, has been a cuter week for me. It's unfortunate, too, because the only person I ever want to look cute for isn't here for it. Maybe it'll extend into next week. Hopefully.
I went shopping last weekend and bought new super cute clothes, and I went again today and bought Gap shoes for five dollars (originally forty) and a lacey Gap cami for two dollars and ninety seven cents. I should get an award.
So you know what feels great? Hearing "Bye Sweetie, I Love You."
Because no matter how crappy I was feeling during the week or how long my days seem, hearing your voice say that says so much more than just five words.