Life is tough.
Sometimes it seems like life is way too hard. And at those times, you can usually see a clear, easy way around the difficulties, constantly making you wonder why you can't take that easy road.
I've been gone since a week before Saturday on a cruise. We were supposed to go to Cozumel, Belize, and Key West... instead Hurricane Emily decided to be a jerk so the boat was like hell no we're goin the otha way. So we went to the Bahamas, St. Thomas, and St. Maarten. Very nice places. The most beautiful beaches I've ever seen. Although, the bia decided she wasn't going to let us get by with all sunshine, so it was overcast for the last couple days. Whatev.
The worst part was being away from my boy. He is actually still gone in Alaska. I hate being away from him for so long with no phone, no letters, nothing. Just being cut off from each other for over a week. And to top it all off, my birthday was Saturday. I didn't get to see him, but he did call from a pay phone, which made me feel amazingly better after a day full of the car ride home. Probably one of, if not the, worst birthday of my life. Thats not really saying much, though, because my birthdays tend to be good days. And I did get to finally talk to Lee and see Jayme at like 10:00, which both made me feel a million times better.
I miss him so much, though. So much.
He comes home tomorrow. *excitement*
I can't wait.
In other news...
Tonight I got really upset over something that should not be a big deal. I am sorry that it is, and I wish I could have more control over the situation. I cried alot, because not many people know precisely how to get me very upset. I want you to know, though, that I am sorry for anything that I have ever done to make you feel bad in any way. The last thing I want is for you to be unhappy, and if I have caused that unhappiness then I should rot in hell. I love you, with every fiber of my being, and you know that.
Nothing should or will ever come between us.
Best friends for life.