as I'm sitting here doing nothing but aging
I am now two days into seasonal retail... well, it's not retail hell. That would be working at a grocery store. It is a boring job. It is a lot of standing around, a lot of walking around, a lot of tidying up disheveled towels and such. This is particularly true early in the morning on week days. I should be wishing it was a permanent job, but honestly I am happy it is seasonal. It makes it easier to take. After it is over, who knows what I will do. But, I do not feel trapped. If I feel stressed, I can see an end, but at the same time I am making some car money. And there are other good things that money can buy. Like a new tattoo.
Fuu~ It sucks that I have to work on Halloween though. No wacky hijinx for me. No Autism Walk.
Hmm... I started this entry over an hour ago and got distracted by stuff and now I can't really remember where I was going with it. Uh... I am working on my grad school application. I really hope I get in. And also... I hope I have what it takes to be a librarian. Lately I have been so full of self-doubt. I know that I am smart and can do many things, but I am so socially deficient that my fate is a constant source of uncertainty.
Working is not fun by any means. My inner feminist cries over the fact that I fantasize about the long ago days when women didn't work outside the home. I want to be a kept woman. And yet, I find most (but certainly not all) men kind of repellent. So there is a definite hurdle. I guess I have to work for a living. *sigh* I am probably not marriage material anyways.
I guess I will close this out. I think I meant to say something more interesting than this whining but, alas, I have forgotten. Tomorrow I close at work, so at least I do not have to wake up too early. I have Wednesday and Friday off. Maybe on Friday I will go see Gentlemen Broncos. I was going to make my brother go with me, but it is his birthday so I will not ask him to do anything he doesn't want to. Besides, I am woman enough to see a matinee unaccompanied.
Fuu~ It sucks that I have to work on Halloween though. No wacky hijinx for me. No Autism Walk.
Hmm... I started this entry over an hour ago and got distracted by stuff and now I can't really remember where I was going with it. Uh... I am working on my grad school application. I really hope I get in. And also... I hope I have what it takes to be a librarian. Lately I have been so full of self-doubt. I know that I am smart and can do many things, but I am so socially deficient that my fate is a constant source of uncertainty.
Working is not fun by any means. My inner feminist cries over the fact that I fantasize about the long ago days when women didn't work outside the home. I want to be a kept woman. And yet, I find most (but certainly not all) men kind of repellent. So there is a definite hurdle. I guess I have to work for a living. *sigh* I am probably not marriage material anyways.
I guess I will close this out. I think I meant to say something more interesting than this whining but, alas, I have forgotten. Tomorrow I close at work, so at least I do not have to wake up too early. I have Wednesday and Friday off. Maybe on Friday I will go see Gentlemen Broncos. I was going to make my brother go with me, but it is his birthday so I will not ask him to do anything he doesn't want to. Besides, I am woman enough to see a matinee unaccompanied.