don't read this... it's a rant.

[greeneyedjoy]

I feel strange. I feel like I can't accomplish anything lately. I'm making straight B's in my classes, which is horrifying. I can't figure out what I actually want to do with the rest of my life. My room is a complete mess and cleaning isn't even a procrastination activity anymore. I feel like I can't take care of myself anymore and my life is changing too quickly around me for me to be sure I'm making good decisions. I don't feel passionately about anything like I used to. Everything has blended together into one big meaningless mass. Not to mention, my wisdom teeth are growing in so that all my teeth are shifting and I can't bite correctly anymore. That, and I've run out of contacts and I think the ones I'm using right now (which I only opened three weeks ago and they're monthlies) are defective because every few hours they get horribly unclear.
I'm just unclear about a lot of things right now.