ok so wow
ok so lets erase the past couple of entries...
this is gonna be suprising it was for me anyways..
me and eric.. BACK ON!! haha i know i said i was done.. but i just cant help it.. i have to follow my heart.. if i get hurt this time.. im the one to blame.. cause i want to be with him...
it all started thursday march 24.. and it changed everything... i didnt know if i wanted him to come here but he begged me and i asked one of my good friends if i should... and she said to do it.. cause deep down i know i wanted him to!! so he comes over.. and i just lay on my bed..and i dont know something clicked.. and it just felt right.. i mean that night a lot happened.. i found out he was with another girl.. and the thought of that made me realize that he should be with me and not her.. i just knew it by the way we looked at each other..
so then friday i leave for new jersey.. was supposed to spend most of it with chris.. but after an awesome night with eric.. i couldnt stop thinking about him.. i think what i remember most is he just kept pushing the hair out of my eyes so we could have full eye contact.. anyways.. i saw chris a total of two times.. and still eric was still in my head.. i just couldnt stop thinking about him.. and couldnt wait to come home and see him!! so finally sunday night im home.. he comes over it felt so good to see him and hug..i feel so tiny in his arms and i love the way he makes me feel..
so anyways didnt see him mon. tues. but wednesday we hungout.. he got to see my mom.. and for some strange reason i know she likes him.. and sooo wednesday night thats when things started on the next level... i dont regret it at all.. cause it makes me realize just how much we mean to each other.. and it was very good :0D
so right now were just friends.. buuuuuut we both now that there is something there.. we just wanna wait a little bit until we are together again.. we dont want it to end up where it did last time.. so as of now thigns are great.. of course im scared and nervous.. cause IM FALLING... but i cant help it.. and i know he feels the same way just by looking at me..the way he looks at me is sooo intense its crazy!!
so who knows what will happen.. i just take it day by day and I AM VERRRRRRRy happy.. and havent felt like this in a long time!! and im glad its with him!!<333 ahhh so now thats all out.. im gonna go talk to him now<333 ill try to update with whatever happens.. exoh <3 JjJJjAAAAaaAiIiIIiiII
this is gonna be suprising it was for me anyways..
me and eric.. BACK ON!! haha i know i said i was done.. but i just cant help it.. i have to follow my heart.. if i get hurt this time.. im the one to blame.. cause i want to be with him...
it all started thursday march 24.. and it changed everything... i didnt know if i wanted him to come here but he begged me and i asked one of my good friends if i should... and she said to do it.. cause deep down i know i wanted him to!! so he comes over.. and i just lay on my bed..and i dont know something clicked.. and it just felt right.. i mean that night a lot happened.. i found out he was with another girl.. and the thought of that made me realize that he should be with me and not her.. i just knew it by the way we looked at each other..
so then friday i leave for new jersey.. was supposed to spend most of it with chris.. but after an awesome night with eric.. i couldnt stop thinking about him.. i think what i remember most is he just kept pushing the hair out of my eyes so we could have full eye contact.. anyways.. i saw chris a total of two times.. and still eric was still in my head.. i just couldnt stop thinking about him.. and couldnt wait to come home and see him!! so finally sunday night im home.. he comes over it felt so good to see him and hug..i feel so tiny in his arms and i love the way he makes me feel..
so anyways didnt see him mon. tues. but wednesday we hungout.. he got to see my mom.. and for some strange reason i know she likes him.. and sooo wednesday night thats when things started on the next level... i dont regret it at all.. cause it makes me realize just how much we mean to each other.. and it was very good :0D
so right now were just friends.. buuuuuut we both now that there is something there.. we just wanna wait a little bit until we are together again.. we dont want it to end up where it did last time.. so as of now thigns are great.. of course im scared and nervous.. cause IM FALLING... but i cant help it.. and i know he feels the same way just by looking at me..the way he looks at me is sooo intense its crazy!!
so who knows what will happen.. i just take it day by day and I AM VERRRRRRRy happy.. and havent felt like this in a long time!! and im glad its with him!!<333 ahhh so now thats all out.. im gonna go talk to him now<333 ill try to update with whatever happens.. exoh <3 JjJJjAAAAaaAiIiIIiiII