so im going to be brutally honest
i hate livejournal and have no interest in it, but figure its the safer place to shout out my true colors where i know no one really reads it.
anyway. im screwed up. i mean. i like my life. but at the same time i dont.
im in one of those terrible self destructive moods where I'll do anything just to be different than I am now.
lets see... last weekened i hitch hiked from canada to tukwilla just for the hell of it. i started smoking and am completely craving cigarettes and pot now. i have no apetite what so ever and my pounds are dropping off like flies to the point where it hurts.
im not complaining. in fact, in a sick twisted way i like it because it brings me control. I want to get my own apartment after this semester in Bellingham and have fallen inlove with a realyl cute one right by the mall. its perfect. The only way I can get it is to whore myself out. and yes. i have been recruited by an escorting company in Vancouver and it pays a thousand dinero an hour. yep. its great.
now if anyone actually reads this they'll probably be disgusted and turn their back on me and this page and ill never even know. but you know what? fuck it. i could really give a shit about peoples stupid opinions. im doing it my own way. not my mothers. not my boyfriends mothers. not my boyfriends way. not my friends way. my way. Im smarter than people think and i know i can make it. oh and ps. im not saying im whoring myself out.
i have no idea why im writing this all down. no idea at all. im really out of it and strung out and about to pass out so its realy not the time i should be writing this. but fuck it. this is my life. and i dont care. at all. soon im getting out of here. away from all the strings and the traps and the rules. im going to live life my way and ill be happy. finally....
anyway. im screwed up. i mean. i like my life. but at the same time i dont.
im in one of those terrible self destructive moods where I'll do anything just to be different than I am now.
lets see... last weekened i hitch hiked from canada to tukwilla just for the hell of it. i started smoking and am completely craving cigarettes and pot now. i have no apetite what so ever and my pounds are dropping off like flies to the point where it hurts.
im not complaining. in fact, in a sick twisted way i like it because it brings me control. I want to get my own apartment after this semester in Bellingham and have fallen inlove with a realyl cute one right by the mall. its perfect. The only way I can get it is to whore myself out. and yes. i have been recruited by an escorting company in Vancouver and it pays a thousand dinero an hour. yep. its great.
now if anyone actually reads this they'll probably be disgusted and turn their back on me and this page and ill never even know. but you know what? fuck it. i could really give a shit about peoples stupid opinions. im doing it my own way. not my mothers. not my boyfriends mothers. not my boyfriends way. not my friends way. my way. Im smarter than people think and i know i can make it. oh and ps. im not saying im whoring myself out.
i have no idea why im writing this all down. no idea at all. im really out of it and strung out and about to pass out so its realy not the time i should be writing this. but fuck it. this is my life. and i dont care. at all. soon im getting out of here. away from all the strings and the traps and the rules. im going to live life my way and ill be happy. finally....