Well...it was the end of something so right...
I didn't even think it was quite such a big deal until it was over. As most of you may or may not know, I am a HUGE Harry Potter fan. Yes, I am a month away from being 20, and I've been in love with Harry Potter and all things related for FIVE years now. I am not ashamed to admit it either. A few months after my infatuation with HP started, March of 2002, to be exact, I ran across something called HP Fanfiction. I LOVED fanfiction to begin with, but then they had HP fanfiction? Oh I was all up on that. I would try to find good websites for it, but never found what I wanted. A really good HP fanfic. Something long and meaningful. One day I ran across two websites called schnoogle.com & sugarquill.net. Well I went there and was immediately hooked. Everyday in 10th grade, it wouldn't fail , I would go to the library instead of eating lunch, and read all these fanfictions. I was so addicted I actually started WRITING one! One that lasted for twenty-three chapters might I add? Anyway...I found what I was looking for...the perfect fanfic. It was actually a new story, probably four or five chapters old, and was meant to be in a set of three stories. A trilogy...The Draco Trilogy by Cassandra Claire. Divided into Draco Dormiens, Draco Sinister and Draco Veritas. It was THE best fanfic I had ever read, even at it's early stages. I read until I read the very last part that was posted of Draco Veritas, in early 2004. Then from there...it would be months at a time before she would update it...So I kinda left it alone and forgot about it. Only every now and then would I get an email from her email list, saying she had a new chapter up for me to read. Then finally...about and hour and a half ago, I got THE email. The last one I would get. Chapter 17, The Epilogue for Draco Veritas, was up. I almost didn't want to read it. I knew that once I read it, that would be that. Once I finished it, with tears in my eyes...I realized something. I had been reading this set of stories for a good chunk of my teenage years...and here I am about to be 20. I just can't believe it, at all. I think I'm very close with myself...I know who I am, how I act and all of this. A lot of people my age aren't lucky enough to be at such peace with themselves, like I am. I may not know exactly where I'll go from here...but I know myself, and I think that's something I have been waiting for....for self-recognition of this fact. Sure, being twenty isn't being twenty-one with the completeness of being legal, all-around. But that's not what I care about. I will literally no longer be a teenager at this point. There is no -teen suffix in the word 'twenty'. I think I decided to post this entry...because not only did I finish one of the most smallest significant parts of me, tonight...but I finished a VERY significant chapter in MY life...I may not be twenty quite yet, but I may as well be. I'll probably post another entry sort of like this, on my fateful b-day...and probably again next spring, when the very last HP book is published...but right now, I felt the need to express a little bit of sorrow for my gone-with-the-wind teenage years...but also the anxiety, excitement and plain fear of becoming a REAL adult. It's so close, I can taste it. But...I think I'm finally ready to part with being a teenager. It may have been the best part of my life, but hey...I'm not dead yet. :)
And as a parting question...What does anyone think I should do for this 20th bday of mine? I already want to get a tattoo...but what else would be fitting for the occasion?
And as a parting question...What does anyone think I should do for this 20th bday of mine? I already want to get a tattoo...but what else would be fitting for the occasion?