this is stupid
ugh... I totally freaked on Trish.
trishlm89: haha no toasty like .....buzzed....l0 sheets to the wind.....haha
Greeneyed 6541: okay... nod and smile
trishlm89: drunk ahah
Greeneyed 6541: figures
trishlm89: haha yeah doing it again tonight...woo hoo! haha
Greeneyed 6541: o_O you wouldn' happen to still be a little under the influence.. would you?
trishlm89: no im not actually.....im just excited
Greeneyed 6541: -_- well then why are you telling me all this stuff. You know I don' dig that stuff and you're what? VP of SADD? And I'm the one who lost to you... and you're telling me all this...
Greeneyed 6541: I 'unno whether to be utterly heartbroken... disappointed in you or furious
trishlm89: shit....i kind of forgot about that....hmmmmm shit! ....damn it! fuck!
Greeneyed 6541: no offense meant chica.. but really. why you braggin'?
Greeneyed 6541: even Cassondra's gone dry
trishlm89: i guess just b/c i had like the best time of my life last night........hmm....ok im not going to have that party....now i feel like a complete dumb ass.....fuck!
Greeneyed 6541: eh.. w/e. sorry to kill it for you.. I didn' mean to preach or anything, I just thought you knew that's how I went so I was a bit miffed that you'd come to me to rattle on 'bout that
trishlm89: yeah....no its ok....it was just cool b/c my parents were out of town i was with my sis and my friends birthday is today but we celebrated it last night...it was kind of spur of the moment and forgot about shit
Greeneyed 6541: eh.. like I said w/e. 's your life. You party with alcohol, I with caffiene
To explain a bit.. SADD is, for those of you who don' know, Students Against Destructive Decisions [formally Drunk Driving]. So.. yea, we sign a contract that says we won' drink irresponsibly and so on. And we have a chapter here in Surrey and the position of VP was between me and Trish. It was sort of decided from there that whoever didn' win there would be in the entering for Senior rep 'cause Ashley was such a shoe in for Prez [Amy won Senior rep]. And.. well.. Trish goes to parties, she's a cheerleader, she has a car.. simply put: she's pretty and popular. and won. I was a little disappointed, 'cause just for once, I wanted to be a representative for something.. 'steada just standing on the sidelines all the time. And.. I 'unno. Trish coming.. IMing first even, just to brag about how fuckin' drunk she was last night? That's just... not right. I ain' touched alcohol since church.. and that was like.. a tiny little glass.
And this just.. I guess goes back to what Ethan keeps askin' me.. why won' I touch the stuff. I guess it's partly 'cause of people like Trish and Cassondra. And Cassondra.. geeze... that girl. She was the biggest bragger 'bout her weekend adventures with Mr. Bottle. And when I said what I said 'bout her to Trish, I was pretty much aiming to get across to Trish that she's becoming just like Cassondra was. And lately, all Cassondra seems to brag about is how long she's been without alcohol. I'm proud of her.. but eh, not super deep. Me and her ain' super close and she's too fickle to put much stock in, but I'm still proud of her.
But back to what I was sayin' 'bout Ethan... The reason I don' want to drink is.. I guess I just want to be me. And the way he describes it.. he says stuff 'bout "losing inhibitions" and how it's so great.. but I'm a nut job. I have to be. I feel so tightly wound.. but I don' mind it. I really don't. I'm tightly wound 'cause I have all these plans and hopes and just.. expectations. I fear if I lose my inhibitions any more than I already do with caffeine, there'll be hell to pay. I don' want to lose some project that I've been workin' on for god only knows how long just because I said the magic word[s] that I was saving for "escape button" mode.
trishlm89: haha no toasty like .....buzzed....l0 sheets to the wind.....haha
Greeneyed 6541: okay... nod and smile
trishlm89: drunk ahah
Greeneyed 6541: figures
trishlm89: haha yeah doing it again tonight...woo hoo! haha
Greeneyed 6541: o_O you wouldn' happen to still be a little under the influence.. would you?
trishlm89: no im not actually.....im just excited
Greeneyed 6541: -_- well then why are you telling me all this stuff. You know I don' dig that stuff and you're what? VP of SADD? And I'm the one who lost to you... and you're telling me all this...
Greeneyed 6541: I 'unno whether to be utterly heartbroken... disappointed in you or furious
trishlm89: shit....i kind of forgot about that....hmmmmm shit! ....damn it! fuck!
Greeneyed 6541: no offense meant chica.. but really. why you braggin'?
Greeneyed 6541: even Cassondra's gone dry
trishlm89: i guess just b/c i had like the best time of my life last night........hmm....ok im not going to have that party....now i feel like a complete dumb ass.....fuck!
Greeneyed 6541: eh.. w/e. sorry to kill it for you.. I didn' mean to preach or anything, I just thought you knew that's how I went so I was a bit miffed that you'd come to me to rattle on 'bout that
trishlm89: yeah....no its ok....it was just cool b/c my parents were out of town i was with my sis and my friends birthday is today but we celebrated it last night...it was kind of spur of the moment and forgot about shit
Greeneyed 6541: eh.. like I said w/e. 's your life. You party with alcohol, I with caffiene
To explain a bit.. SADD is, for those of you who don' know, Students Against Destructive Decisions [formally Drunk Driving]. So.. yea, we sign a contract that says we won' drink irresponsibly and so on. And we have a chapter here in Surrey and the position of VP was between me and Trish. It was sort of decided from there that whoever didn' win there would be in the entering for Senior rep 'cause Ashley was such a shoe in for Prez [Amy won Senior rep]. And.. well.. Trish goes to parties, she's a cheerleader, she has a car.. simply put: she's pretty and popular. and won. I was a little disappointed, 'cause just for once, I wanted to be a representative for something.. 'steada just standing on the sidelines all the time. And.. I 'unno. Trish coming.. IMing first even, just to brag about how fuckin' drunk she was last night? That's just... not right. I ain' touched alcohol since church.. and that was like.. a tiny little glass.
And this just.. I guess goes back to what Ethan keeps askin' me.. why won' I touch the stuff. I guess it's partly 'cause of people like Trish and Cassondra. And Cassondra.. geeze... that girl. She was the biggest bragger 'bout her weekend adventures with Mr. Bottle. And when I said what I said 'bout her to Trish, I was pretty much aiming to get across to Trish that she's becoming just like Cassondra was. And lately, all Cassondra seems to brag about is how long she's been without alcohol. I'm proud of her.. but eh, not super deep. Me and her ain' super close and she's too fickle to put much stock in, but I'm still proud of her.
But back to what I was sayin' 'bout Ethan... The reason I don' want to drink is.. I guess I just want to be me. And the way he describes it.. he says stuff 'bout "losing inhibitions" and how it's so great.. but I'm a nut job. I have to be. I feel so tightly wound.. but I don' mind it. I really don't. I'm tightly wound 'cause I have all these plans and hopes and just.. expectations. I fear if I lose my inhibitions any more than I already do with caffeine, there'll be hell to pay. I don' want to lose some project that I've been workin' on for god only knows how long just because I said the magic word[s] that I was saving for "escape button" mode.