love me, love me, love me, love me, love me, love me...
you...are my angel...(are my angel...)...
Today...well, today was interesting. Empty yet full.
Meaning: i felt empty, but the day was filled with a lot of who-ha.
I apparently have one of these 'blah' days where nothing feels right or anything almost every week.
My mom pointed that out to me.
I'm very...frustrated...with ashley.
i don't like that feeling because when I’m frustrated with the person who i go to to talk about my frustrations...it's a little complicated.
another thing about today that just made me feel like "kdghlkjlalkg" was mel.
i love mel dearly, but everytime I’m around her i feel so incompetent. and i hate that.
we're very different people, but--ok, you know when you always feel like someone is 10 steps ahead of you in almost every aspect? thats kinda how i feel. and I’m not really envious of her, because i have my talents too. but thats one of the most irritating things about high school. self consciousness.
I don't know.
I feel very low on friends these past couple weeks...haha, i feel like i don't know who for sure is 'for real' or anything...nothing seems to make sense.
there may be a possibility that i will be in Los Angeles by the end of the year...who knows.
maybe thats what is causing all of these doubts and questions.
i don't know who I’m going to lose.
but that looks like where things are heading with the year long NYFA program.
but no decisions will be made till i get a letter back from Denver...and f u c k are they taking forever...
i want to work on my scrapbook tonight. i don’t even know what I’m doing tonight.
or tomorrow, or this weekend. "i don't know. it's a mystery." -Shakespeare in love
in photography we were looking at Ema's paintings and...i am so much in awe of her talent it's crazy.
i want to paint. i want to be interesting, lol. why can't i find myself fucking interesting?!
ok, I’m starting to hurt. i need to go do something. anything.
Today...well, today was interesting. Empty yet full.
Meaning: i felt empty, but the day was filled with a lot of who-ha.
I apparently have one of these 'blah' days where nothing feels right or anything almost every week.
My mom pointed that out to me.
I'm very...frustrated...with ashley.
i don't like that feeling because when I’m frustrated with the person who i go to to talk about my frustrations...it's a little complicated.
another thing about today that just made me feel like "kdghlkjlalkg" was mel.
i love mel dearly, but everytime I’m around her i feel so incompetent. and i hate that.
we're very different people, but--ok, you know when you always feel like someone is 10 steps ahead of you in almost every aspect? thats kinda how i feel. and I’m not really envious of her, because i have my talents too. but thats one of the most irritating things about high school. self consciousness.
I don't know.
I feel very low on friends these past couple weeks...haha, i feel like i don't know who for sure is 'for real' or anything...nothing seems to make sense.
there may be a possibility that i will be in Los Angeles by the end of the year...who knows.
maybe thats what is causing all of these doubts and questions.
i don't know who I’m going to lose.
but that looks like where things are heading with the year long NYFA program.
but no decisions will be made till i get a letter back from Denver...and f u c k are they taking forever...
i want to work on my scrapbook tonight. i don’t even know what I’m doing tonight.
or tomorrow, or this weekend. "i don't know. it's a mystery." -Shakespeare in love
in photography we were looking at Ema's paintings and...i am so much in awe of her talent it's crazy.
i want to paint. i want to be interesting, lol. why can't i find myself fucking interesting?!
ok, I’m starting to hurt. i need to go do something. anything.