all partied out...and october has just begun.
i went to the imper-ill gruv thing last night, LATE....but i was with tami.
i got off work at like, 9:30. shopped around a bit....didnt find anything i liked (or that fit..) -i am in between sizes and it sucks..im losing a bunch of weight, even my engagement ring is loose on my finger now, and it fit perfectly a month ago or so....wtf?-
anyways, drove all the way to holly springs to tami's house...got there and changed...i actually didt wear anything special or do my hair up or anything, i was plain jane last night....
-sept for my super sexy candies mini hoodie...hehe...i love candies...oh, and my cute flared out jeans with the pink seams....other than that, no makeup and no fancy shmancy jewelry, and no pretty hair...i looked kinda rough.
but i danced....a lot.
plus, it was also pouring outside, AND i had sex in the parking lot again with ian..
twice.
so i have lots of excuses for looking rough last night.
over all it was a pretty good night. tami got some great pics....i love that girl....
if i wasnt engaged, or with someone for that matter, i would TOTALLY get REALLY fucking wild with her....i can see her bringing that side of me out again...
*sigh*
ah, the old days with brianne...my almost lesbian lover...i miss her.
which brings me to this weird discussion that ian and i had last night before one of our car rides (hehe)
here is the thing, he really doesnt want me to go to that party in charlotte on halloween...like, REALLY doesnt want me to go....especially because me and tami and chris (knight) are sharing a room together...(hey, its only going to cost 12 dollars a person..and it is five minutes away from the club)
ian is jealous of chris i think only because a while ago, i had stated i thought chris was cute...but im not really that attracted to him....and i would never even think about cheating on my boyfriend, fuck that- my fucking husband to be...the future father of my kids.. (i know, that was pretty serious, but it is what it is)
and he strait up told me last night that he was scared that i was going to do something and not tell him about it.
*sniffs*
where is the trust in that?
i DO want him to go and i understand why he would be worried about something bad happening (not like, cheating bad, but being around people i dont know bad...it's a long story that i will never go into publicly..)but i dont understand why he would be worried that im going to do something with someone behind his back and not tell him...
i know my fucking limits...and i know my gut...i think ive been through enough shit to know how to control myself.
grrrr. it is pissing me off typing about it...so i will stop.
im going to see ian today. he is at home in cary....
i cant wait!
and damn, i cut myself in the worst place ever shaving a little while ago....
*sigh* the things us girls do for you boys.
you figure it out.
ouch.
i got off work at like, 9:30. shopped around a bit....didnt find anything i liked (or that fit..) -i am in between sizes and it sucks..im losing a bunch of weight, even my engagement ring is loose on my finger now, and it fit perfectly a month ago or so....wtf?-
anyways, drove all the way to holly springs to tami's house...got there and changed...i actually didt wear anything special or do my hair up or anything, i was plain jane last night....
-sept for my super sexy candies mini hoodie...hehe...i love candies...oh, and my cute flared out jeans with the pink seams....other than that, no makeup and no fancy shmancy jewelry, and no pretty hair...i looked kinda rough.
but i danced....a lot.
plus, it was also pouring outside, AND i had sex in the parking lot again with ian..
twice.
so i have lots of excuses for looking rough last night.
over all it was a pretty good night. tami got some great pics....i love that girl....
if i wasnt engaged, or with someone for that matter, i would TOTALLY get REALLY fucking wild with her....i can see her bringing that side of me out again...
*sigh*
ah, the old days with brianne...my almost lesbian lover...i miss her.
which brings me to this weird discussion that ian and i had last night before one of our car rides (hehe)
here is the thing, he really doesnt want me to go to that party in charlotte on halloween...like, REALLY doesnt want me to go....especially because me and tami and chris (knight) are sharing a room together...(hey, its only going to cost 12 dollars a person..and it is five minutes away from the club)
ian is jealous of chris i think only because a while ago, i had stated i thought chris was cute...but im not really that attracted to him....and i would never even think about cheating on my boyfriend, fuck that- my fucking husband to be...the future father of my kids.. (i know, that was pretty serious, but it is what it is)
and he strait up told me last night that he was scared that i was going to do something and not tell him about it.
*sniffs*
where is the trust in that?
i DO want him to go and i understand why he would be worried about something bad happening (not like, cheating bad, but being around people i dont know bad...it's a long story that i will never go into publicly..)but i dont understand why he would be worried that im going to do something with someone behind his back and not tell him...
i know my fucking limits...and i know my gut...i think ive been through enough shit to know how to control myself.
grrrr. it is pissing me off typing about it...so i will stop.
im going to see ian today. he is at home in cary....
i cant wait!
and damn, i cut myself in the worst place ever shaving a little while ago....
*sigh* the things us girls do for you boys.
you figure it out.
ouch.