I am not inspired tonight
I am bored tonight. I have to study but I don't feel like it. I have to sleep but I am far too tired. I have to read "A Time to Kill" although it begins kind of sadly and I am not in the mood. I need to be inspired but alas it's late and there is nothing around but myself and this cra cra computer of mine.
I have made decisions.
I am so sick of all this "I hate gay people" stuff. It is so annoying. All this controversy. All this hate back and forth. I think just lately I am sick of it. It hurts a lot more now than it did before. I just hear about all of the hate going on because I force myself to be educated on the gay happenings. Sometimes I want to scream at these people and just beat the hell out of them. We should not have to hold a "Day of Silence". I just wish I could do so much more. I feel like I am doing nothing. That all this small time activism stuff is getting me and other people no where. It's that constant fact that these people are not changing their minds for anyone and there are so many of them. I am so sick of it.
I felt a little annoyed today. I am not sure what it was. I just wasn't a happy camper. I don't think I was mad. Just annoyed. I really wasnt annoyed with anything in particular just in a very annoyed mood. I am glad no one was really crappy to me today because I would have totally gone off on them. I feel much better now so don't fret my pet.
You know in highschool there were so many crappy people. I made friends with people who did not like me for me. I made friends with people who had nothing in common with me. I was overly nice and quite shy. I tried to be friends with the "important" people because that is what I felt would make me a better and cooler person. There were even people who I thought connected with me on an awesome level then realized later they were just fake. There are just a few people from high school that I love and know love me back. I always think about these crazy high school kids who try and act/dress a certain way in order to fit into some societal category. When I think about them I never let myself think that I was ever like them. I know I was. I know that I wanted desperately to find myself and see where I fit. I am just glad that I was able to find myself and that I didn't get stuck in the mold of someone I thought I should be.
GLAD elections are coming up. I have been Co-Pres for one year and I think I am satisfied with that. Of course I would want to be an officer again but I know that there is a large possibility that will not happen. All of the candidates are great and I know GLAD will be in good hands. That is my main concern. Well wish my luck and I will let you know if I am a big winner or looser.
I try and smile a lot. I think that there are people in this world who are sad and depressed. I feel that there is always that chance that I can really change someone's day by smiling at them or even acknowledging their existence. I want so badly to do good in my life and I think this is one way to give some effort. Although there is always that one catch where you smile at the wrong person then you spend house explaining to them you were not hitting on them. Crazy people!!
Sometimes when I sit on my bed at night I begin to think I have the ability to breath in love
I have made decisions.
I am so sick of all this "I hate gay people" stuff. It is so annoying. All this controversy. All this hate back and forth. I think just lately I am sick of it. It hurts a lot more now than it did before. I just hear about all of the hate going on because I force myself to be educated on the gay happenings. Sometimes I want to scream at these people and just beat the hell out of them. We should not have to hold a "Day of Silence". I just wish I could do so much more. I feel like I am doing nothing. That all this small time activism stuff is getting me and other people no where. It's that constant fact that these people are not changing their minds for anyone and there are so many of them. I am so sick of it.
I felt a little annoyed today. I am not sure what it was. I just wasn't a happy camper. I don't think I was mad. Just annoyed. I really wasnt annoyed with anything in particular just in a very annoyed mood. I am glad no one was really crappy to me today because I would have totally gone off on them. I feel much better now so don't fret my pet.
You know in highschool there were so many crappy people. I made friends with people who did not like me for me. I made friends with people who had nothing in common with me. I was overly nice and quite shy. I tried to be friends with the "important" people because that is what I felt would make me a better and cooler person. There were even people who I thought connected with me on an awesome level then realized later they were just fake. There are just a few people from high school that I love and know love me back. I always think about these crazy high school kids who try and act/dress a certain way in order to fit into some societal category. When I think about them I never let myself think that I was ever like them. I know I was. I know that I wanted desperately to find myself and see where I fit. I am just glad that I was able to find myself and that I didn't get stuck in the mold of someone I thought I should be.
GLAD elections are coming up. I have been Co-Pres for one year and I think I am satisfied with that. Of course I would want to be an officer again but I know that there is a large possibility that will not happen. All of the candidates are great and I know GLAD will be in good hands. That is my main concern. Well wish my luck and I will let you know if I am a big winner or looser.
I try and smile a lot. I think that there are people in this world who are sad and depressed. I feel that there is always that chance that I can really change someone's day by smiling at them or even acknowledging their existence. I want so badly to do good in my life and I think this is one way to give some effort. Although there is always that one catch where you smile at the wrong person then you spend house explaining to them you were not hitting on them. Crazy people!!
Sometimes when I sit on my bed at night I begin to think I have the ability to breath in love