Apologies are the tears of a shameful soul

[greeneggs_ham]

It's funny how you can be so close to people and then find yourself so far apart you can't remember how you got there. i can never find people that will just stay with me, they all just leave. and i'm afraid to be alone. i kwo i do it to myself sometimes i didn't used to but trying to hold on to something has an oppisit affect. we are all so

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[greeneggs_ham]

you're not a bad friend you are a good one. saturday was messed up and it really had nothing to do with you or anyone. the comment was made so erin was aware that her nieghbores were spying A LOT on us and i wanted her to make sure that is waas during that time incase shewaas going to get into trouble. Hell i would have said if i was smoking too. You know me who am i to judge anyone doing weed it's a weekly event for me ;) it's not for the fact that i think you guys are going to leave town it's more as time goes on no one hangs out some people don't want to hang with this person or the other. it's just sad.

i wished you had called last night was one of the loneliest nights i've had in long a time. I think i called everyone (except for christine because it was like 10 by the time i got home from work) and no one answered or called back.

The funny thing is i told everyone who was around upstairs what was up like the truth is it was all about work. it totally sucks there and i have to be there almost everyday and my manager said there probably wouldn't be anytime for me to take a week off, which gave me an anxiety attack because i need a break from that place.

Besides the fact that there was jenna and then you it just seemed without knowing people were made at me and i couldn't really figure out why. so all and all a rough wasted night. so don't feel bad because you are a good friend and i know where to go when i need someone. i just don't like talking about stuff that really isn't super important because you guys are all going through way worse shit than me and it feels stupid to stess about not getting holidays. but then i see that i can't hide it and it shows and then people get all like whats up with that so i promise the next time i'm stessed even about the little things i'll vent to someone.