you gotta hold on....hold on to yourself
yeah so this weekend has been a total disappointment. i gotta get myself out of this rut i'm in. my job at tweeter is basically over, so i need to find a new job. barely have any money left for gas. i stupidly smoked weed all weekend. i know its just fucking everything up, but i cant seem to just tell myself to stop. everytime i hang out with my friends its all they wanna do tho. but i still wanna hang out with them. but i dont wanna be around them when they're all high. so i just do it too. i dunno. as soon as i get a new job i'm gonna turn things around. and i want to have a girlfriend. all the girls i'm interested in, are never interested in me. and the ones that are interested in me, we never have anything to talk about. i just want someone to talk to and to help get each other through the hard points of life. i'm sure i'll find someone. plus school sucks and always has. always will. i just gotta deal with that. right now i just wanna turn everything around and get back to the way it used to be. i wanna get back with my other group of friends too. big d once said "the only thing i miss is myself." thats exactly how i feel right now. i just gotta get back to the way it was before. before the magical, yet evil plant known as weed came into my life. i could ramble on and on but that would get boring. later.