Everyone feels so far away from me Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me

[greendayfan]

This is one time I'm not going to hold things back, or sit behind my screened LJ. I made this journal for a reason, and tonight I have the need to vent and say what I need to say, without worrying about what people will think or say

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Oh

[cowgirlup5]

Roxanne,
Im SO sorry that youth group wasnt what it was supposed to be for you last night. I know that we all have a problem with our cliques and what not but that is no excuse for the bad behavior of your friends including me. I now feel very upset with myself for not noticing and im so sorry i wasnt there for you. I hope you know that if i hadnt been rapped up in myself i would have actually noticed something other than the things i thought were important. I hope you come back next wednesday and when i get off groundation i hope we can do something maybe just the two of us or something. I love you and i hope you know that no matter what happens or how self abosorbed i get please tell me so i can change that so no ones feelings get hurt least of all yours. That was never my intention and i hope i never show that much inmauturity again. Our friendship means a lot and i can't believe that i could have been that rude. I love you and i hope you have an awesome day! Im so very sorry for what you were put throught last night. Thats not right and i pray that it never happens again...

<3 Ashley

Re: Oh

[greendayfan]

See that's exactly what I mean! When I first came to youth group, it was never about the invidual, it was always about making friends, having fun, and learning. Things have changed so much, and it really makes me sad. Since I haven't been as involved as I used to, I'm noticing more and more how people do get wrapped up in themselves and make it about them. I've noticed that a large group of people don't play games and don't even pay attention to the message, and bring other people who want to learn, into that downward spiral (I'm talking about a few people in particular here, not you or any of our good friends, don't worry). I know it was never anyones intention, but stuff does happen... It's ok. I'll be fine and I'll get over it, I always do.