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[greendaybabe059]

whats up??! uh notta lot here.....im leavin 4 missouri on the 13th which is also me and kyles 1 month anniversary. ill b back on the uh..17th? idk somewhere around there. i was soo confused cuz me and kyle started going out on tuesday september 13th and exactly 4 tuesdays (weeks) from then would b october 11th and so i was thinkin that the 11th is our 1 month but hes like 'oh noooo its the 13th blahh' and AHHH so confuzzled so ill go w/the 13th w/e!! n/e wayz umm otherwise i just feel kinda depressed/really un-loved and uh...naughty??! i think thats the word im lookin 4. ummmmm im not sayin exactly the naughty part but umm i did something and have been 4 a couple weeks that many ppl wouldnt approve of and NO its NOT drugs i swear @ least 3 ppl have guessed that 2day lmao. but umm it just went 2 the uh...next level 2day i guess u could say, its NOT GOOD but true. i feel unloved cuz dammit i talk about kylwe fn 24-7 and hes like the fn light of my day/life however the frick ya wanna say it and UGH i never feel like he feels the same i feel like im just kinda there 4 his freakin pride so he can say he has a gf big deal woooohoooo and it bugs me. sometimes i just wanna say '4get it its over i love you but its just i dont feel like u love me'even tho he says it, but then i just think about how awesome he is anywayz and i cant and then all i wanna do is kiss him :) lol. but yeah idk i guess im just paranoid ahhhhh im such a negative thinker. grrrrr. but umm i guess thats all i need 2 say 4 now i love you all *blows kisses and gives hugz* plz comment i need love <33333 *~xoxo~* sarah

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN THE WORLD KYLE... HAPPY 1 MONTH ON THE 13th!! (NOT the 11th lol..*kisses*)