that'll happen
so here's whats been going on lately, least the most importent stuff anyways. i saw jeremy sunday. yep. thats right. i went to the mall with him. and well chris tagged along too. which was a good thing i'm thinking. cuz likes...omg....everything just kinda smacked me in the face. it was like the image of the little tiny stick person and the big huge tidle wave comin at it. thats what it felt like. i missed him so much. i wanted to be close to him so badly. i wanted him to want me badly. i dunno. it was crazy. i was so fricken nervous tho. so nervous it made me stupid. cuz likes i told him he didnt have to walk with me while i shopped. and i dunno. i gave him the wrong impression. i shouldnt of did that. cuz i wanted him to not leave me at all. but i'm an idiot. i did my shopping and then i found them and hopelessly tagged along. we then went to kenny's and all i could do was stare at him and laugh at like everything he said. i'm such a dweeb. i mean, could i be any more pathetic? after that he took me home. and well he hugged me. (does this all sound familure) and god i swear if chris hadnt of been there i would kissed him. cuz i'm not afraid really. and i dunno. i just know i would have. so i guess its good that chris was there that way i wouldnt of freaked jeremy out. but he's talkin to me a lot now. well not a lot. buy often. so yeah. thats how that went. still talk to eric a lot tho. cuz well i dont wanna get my hopes up bout this whole jeremy bit and push off a potentially nice person. i dunno. i hate boys. and i hate school too. cuz like its so fuckin boring and i just hate it a lot and i cant wait to graduate. i'm hopin i get to do somethin this weekend. anything. brittany said somethin bout me and her hangin out possibly friday after work and well kelli said she'd like to get a thing going at kenny's. so that would kick ass. mum would have to let me. but yeah. i guess thats al i have to say then. cuz i cant think of anything now. cept for jeremy. cuz i'm a loser. the end.