Pain...Lots of pain
I had a very traumatic EMG done last week; they stuck me with electrodes and zapped my arms to test nerve conduction. I was weeping halfway through, and it didn't get any better. They didn't do the last test, though, as there is apparently nothing wrong with the nerves in my arms. Aside from the fact that they hurt all the time, of course. They didn't address that part of it. Test made me realize what a piss-poor candidate I'd be for torture; I consider myself to have a fairly high pain tolerance, but this was AWFUL.
I've been self-medicating with alcohol. Not the healthiest thing to do, but can't be any unhealthier than staying on the maximum dose of Tylenol and Ibuprofen for months on end. The pain makes me depressed, the alcohol makes me depressed, my DEPRESSION makes me depressed...vicious cycle.
I have an appointment to see a doctor at the U and, I hope and pray, get a referral to the Back and Neck Pain Clinic in Woodbury.
I dread finding a job - after volunteering at HOBT theatre for 5 hours over 2 days, I was in AGONY. And all I was doing was SEWING STRAIGHT SEAMS.
Can someone recommend a deity I should be kissing up to?
I've been self-medicating with alcohol. Not the healthiest thing to do, but can't be any unhealthier than staying on the maximum dose of Tylenol and Ibuprofen for months on end. The pain makes me depressed, the alcohol makes me depressed, my DEPRESSION makes me depressed...vicious cycle.
I have an appointment to see a doctor at the U and, I hope and pray, get a referral to the Back and Neck Pain Clinic in Woodbury.
I dread finding a job - after volunteering at HOBT theatre for 5 hours over 2 days, I was in AGONY. And all I was doing was SEWING STRAIGHT SEAMS.
Can someone recommend a deity I should be kissing up to?