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I am trying to stop being a piece of shit person so I have deleted a lot of the social media accounts that fans the flames. I am focusing on nothing but work, school, and home. I didn't even help out with the United Way Gift Basket this year. Couldn't spare the mental energy.
Slowly but surely I am purging myself. Trying to wipe myself clean of the internet. Improbable, but not impossible.
Pretty soon I will have livejournal backed up and printed off and I can delete this as well. Forever in archives. The last link.
Every action that I take, I try to take a second and think where my motivation lies.
I had the strangest dream this morning.
I was standing clothed in a bathtub and I was grappling with a guy. I took the crucifix necklace off and pushed it against the guys forehead and started repeating "the power of christ compels you". Keeping the crucifix on his forehead we continued to fight. Somehow, throughout the fight, he turned into a lizard. But the lizard was walking out of himself. I found lizard skin. A little further up I found lizard bones. And still further was a pile of lizard muscle. That was as far as I got. In that instant I woke up still repeating "the power of christ compels you".
Slowly but surely I am purging myself. Trying to wipe myself clean of the internet. Improbable, but not impossible.
Pretty soon I will have livejournal backed up and printed off and I can delete this as well. Forever in archives. The last link.
Every action that I take, I try to take a second and think where my motivation lies.
I had the strangest dream this morning.
I was standing clothed in a bathtub and I was grappling with a guy. I took the crucifix necklace off and pushed it against the guys forehead and started repeating "the power of christ compels you". Keeping the crucifix on his forehead we continued to fight. Somehow, throughout the fight, he turned into a lizard. But the lizard was walking out of himself. I found lizard skin. A little further up I found lizard bones. And still further was a pile of lizard muscle. That was as far as I got. In that instant I woke up still repeating "the power of christ compels you".