choppiness can sometimes keep out the vital points
lecture :
boxes and labels and freedom to be, authenticity. this drive to live freely without any restriction or obligation.
something i crave. but i consistently inhibit myself by sticking me in these numerous boxes to define my existence so i can feel comfortable being. and trying to convince myself i am something i am not. or something i feel i should be or shouldn't be.
and when he started talking about authenticity. i sort of felt "EXACTLY!" that is exactly what it is about. it was the first lecture in this particular class i really got into and was feeling what was being said.
there is this new kick ass cafe called muddy waters that plays stellar music and serves coffee drinks as well as alcohol.
last night instead of going to the library i took my shit to the cafe, drank a couple beers, and read for hours. it was fucking awesome. i got so much academic stuff done and the tension building under my skin, all day, dissipitated. i was so relaxed being
there with the music and the atmosphere. even the people really didn't bother me. cause it is the same folks that have been coffeeshop hopping the last few years. i thnk there was only one person there i didn't know. i think we've found a new home away from home.
it was exactly what this town needed.
i think the worst thing about it is you can not smoke. and that isn't always a bad thing.
i need to find a way detach myself from my grandfolks lives.
and i do this thing with conflict. when there is conflict.
i fall off the face of the earth from whoever it is i have conflict with.
i don't like the tension. but in every relationship, of any kind, there is conflict.
this i've come to realize. it is a way of getting know ppl's passions.
there is this chick who claims to have green eyes. and there is this song with this line that reminds me of her.
"your heart felt good."
cause when i spent time with her..it was an experience i'll never forget and that's awesome.
and it was her showing me this different way of viewing life and not taking everything so seriously.
boxes and labels and freedom to be, authenticity. this drive to live freely without any restriction or obligation.
something i crave. but i consistently inhibit myself by sticking me in these numerous boxes to define my existence so i can feel comfortable being. and trying to convince myself i am something i am not. or something i feel i should be or shouldn't be.
and when he started talking about authenticity. i sort of felt "EXACTLY!" that is exactly what it is about. it was the first lecture in this particular class i really got into and was feeling what was being said.
there is this new kick ass cafe called muddy waters that plays stellar music and serves coffee drinks as well as alcohol.
last night instead of going to the library i took my shit to the cafe, drank a couple beers, and read for hours. it was fucking awesome. i got so much academic stuff done and the tension building under my skin, all day, dissipitated. i was so relaxed being
there with the music and the atmosphere. even the people really didn't bother me. cause it is the same folks that have been coffeeshop hopping the last few years. i thnk there was only one person there i didn't know. i think we've found a new home away from home.
it was exactly what this town needed.
i think the worst thing about it is you can not smoke. and that isn't always a bad thing.
i need to find a way detach myself from my grandfolks lives.
and i do this thing with conflict. when there is conflict.
i fall off the face of the earth from whoever it is i have conflict with.
i don't like the tension. but in every relationship, of any kind, there is conflict.
this i've come to realize. it is a way of getting know ppl's passions.
there is this chick who claims to have green eyes. and there is this song with this line that reminds me of her.
"your heart felt good."
cause when i spent time with her..it was an experience i'll never forget and that's awesome.
and it was her showing me this different way of viewing life and not taking everything so seriously.