for how much longer can I howl into this wind?
Whenever I try to write something longer than drabble length lately I don't like it any more by the time I make it to 2000 words. It's like I get tired of it, but that's not it. I've got this Blaise/Seamus which I feel like I've been whining about for months (and I have) and it's actually nearing completion and now I feel like I need to rewrite it. Like it's too literal. I get annoyed with myself for telling the story when really what I want to be doing is showing it, feeling it.
I guess I just really need to get over this everything must be lyrical and and flowing description and full of hidden meaning thing. I mean who can sustain that for a novel length anyway? Except that I've read books like that, fic like that.
I wish I could manage to work and write at the same time, I mean not really at the same time obviously, but I seem to need an entire day to get my shit together to actually work on anything that I've already started. And when I'm working, well, I don't have spare days. Plus it's just. Damnit doing something I want to do this much shouldn't be so difficult.
So instead of sitting down and making myself work on the fic (any fic) I get distracted by magna that is melodramatic in all the right ways and steeped in ust and deep heartwrenching feelings and read the entire thing even though I said I was going to ration it.
I guess I just really need to get over this everything must be lyrical and and flowing description and full of hidden meaning thing. I mean who can sustain that for a novel length anyway? Except that I've read books like that, fic like that.
I wish I could manage to work and write at the same time, I mean not really at the same time obviously, but I seem to need an entire day to get my shit together to actually work on anything that I've already started. And when I'm working, well, I don't have spare days. Plus it's just. Damnit doing something I want to do this much shouldn't be so difficult.
So instead of sitting down and making myself work on the fic (any fic) I get distracted by magna that is melodramatic in all the right ways and steeped in ust and deep heartwrenching feelings and read the entire thing even though I said I was going to ration it.